Comments | rezag: remembering

rezag

remembering

Aug 14, 2004 00:30

My scars hurt for some reason every once in a while. And God, they are so ugly to look at. I have no idea how I was able to stop the bleeding. I think it's sort of a miracle. I literally just stabbed as hard as I could into my wrist. Everytime I look at them I'm reminded of it. So when they start hurting I'm constantly thinking about it. I don't ( Read more... )

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HORNY!! anonymous August 14 2004, 13:02:37 UTC

Write something to make me horny please!

Re: HORNY!! runnonnifty August 14 2004, 13:57:51 UTC

I think that was rude to post on a journal entry like this =(

pinkjammastar August 14 2004, 13:59:15 UTC

I do know how you feel, and I sure wish that I could help, but I'm going through the exact same thing right now myself. I visited Jake's grave for the first time, and after a while I allowed myself to get comfortable talking to him, and I felt good promising him that I'd be there every week and that we were always going to be together, in some way or another. But once I had decided that I wasn't going to kill myself, I've let myself have happy moments with my friends, and even when I'm having fun, Jake is always there somehow. I guess that I shouldn't feel bad about having fun and about wanting to meet new people and maybe even date, but it's hard because Jake is of course choice #1, and if there was any way that he could still physically be here and I could be with him, he'd be the one I wanted obviously. But since he's NOT physically here, I'm faced with all these emotions and the love that I still feel for him but also that horrible feeling of loneliness and wanting to be happy with someone. It's a hard hard thing, and I ( ... )

autumnaltears August 14 2004, 16:08:30 UTC

Poor honey. *HUGS* If you ever need to talk to someone who's lost loved ones of her own, feel free to IM me. I've been there. I admire you for holding up so well. You're never alone, hon. Much love + support.

Beccs.

anonymous August 14 2004, 18:16:23 UTC

look...everyone feels sorry for you, we all know youve lost someone you love, but, goddammit its time to fucking get over it already. its been what, a month? and youre still whyning about it? yea i understand your pain, my girlfriend dumped me a while ago. but now your just enjoying the fucking attention. im tired of seeing this stupid shit on my friends page, so stop it. dont post any shit like this anymore. i use to respect you and yes i get off on your sex stories. but now your just pissing me off. theres other fish in the sea, you know. and i know you know that because you already fucked one of em. you pretend to care about sophie but as soon as she gets in a car crash you just turn around and fuck someone else. and um yea isnt that the definition of a slut.

so please, i'll say it nicely, shut up already. if sohpie was so "Perfect" she would learn how to drive in the first place.. hahah jk im not THAT much of an asshole.

anonymous August 14 2004, 18:21:54 UTC

oh yea, and one more thing. Your right, you don't know anything about Politics, so dont talk about it. its people like you thats the reason people like Saddam are in power.

pinkjammastar August 14 2004, 19:33:29 UTC

I don't really give a shit that it may not be my 'place' to say anything here, because are you fucking kidding me that you would actually say something like that to her? Or to anyone? What kind of person are you? Just so you know, your girlfriend 'dumping you' and your girlfriend 'dying' are quite a bit different, so you obviously have no idea what she is going through. Everyone handles grief in different ways, and for many people it helps to try to get on with life and to sometimes get close with other people. That in no way means that she isn't still in love with Sophie or that she is 'over it'. It's been a little over a month, and she's still going to be dealing with this in a little over a year and for the rest of her life, so if you don't like what she wants to write about in her own LiveJournal where she can write about whatever the fuck she wants to, take it off your friends page! Oh, and if she's on your friend's page, how about you grow a pair and post under your own username instead of being such a whiney scared ( ... )

anonymous August 16 2004, 23:45:27 UTC

um...yeah your right it ISNT your place to say anything hear.

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darthkinky August 14 2004, 21:30:14 UTC

angie im so sorry that you still feel this way about sophie, and im gonna do like you did. im not here to tell you what to feel, but i am here to give u support. I want you to know that, sophie is in heaven, and where shes at shes happy, and it probably would make her sad if she saw you so miserable. you just have to remember that she is happy, and that one day you will be together, but you have to make the best of the days until that comes