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i hate using the livejournal for this, but i feel like too much of an idiot to actually say it out loud, so here it is. i'll probably delete it soon anyway because i'm ashamed of this.. of myself
i'm such an idiot. i let myself go for something so stupid
so unattainable, so "dreamy". what was i thinking? why did i invest?
i should have known better.
why did i think that this (..or anything like this) would work out for me?
i opened my mouth, big mistake. i was optimistic and impatient.
i learned from that one person that there is a way that it has to happen
there are steps.. the first of which are invisible
but love can place
will it again? who knows.
but that SURELY wasn't it. there's not a way it could have been.
why did i fool myself? why wasn't something or someone there to give me a reality check?
did i even want that? hindsight, people.
think i'm going for a walk now, i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me.. except maybe you
i could make you happy you know if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things and i do
tell you the truth i prefer the worst of you,
too bad you had to have a better half.
she's not really my type, but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but you're perfect together
so fuck you and your untouchable face
and fuck you for existing in the first place
and who am i that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i? i bet you can't even tell me that much.
i'm such an idiot. i let myself go for something so stupid
so unattainable, so "dreamy". what was i thinking? why did i invest?
i should have known better.
why did i think that this (..or anything like this) would work out for me?
i opened my mouth, big mistake. i was optimistic and impatient.
i learned from that one person that there is a way that it has to happen
there are steps.. the first of which are invisible
but love can place
will it again? who knows.
but that SURELY wasn't it. there's not a way it could have been.
why did i fool myself? why wasn't something or someone there to give me a reality check?
did i even want that? hindsight, people.
think i'm going for a walk now, i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me.. except maybe you
i could make you happy you know if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things and i do
tell you the truth i prefer the worst of you,
too bad you had to have a better half.
she's not really my type, but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but you're perfect together
so fuck you and your untouchable face
and fuck you for existing in the first place
and who am i that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i? i bet you can't even tell me that much.