on, off, on, off. i prefer it this way. i don't do normal. i don't do consistant. you're much more than i thought you'd be. thank you. it's what i need. whatever you become, whatever you are right now... i'm happy it's the way it is. i asked for a bond. i'm not ready for more. maybe we're helping each other transition. all i know is that i have ( Read more... )

i cant invest in more than just the beginning.
for anything.

everything comes and goes
comes and goes
comes and goes

because i wont allow anything to stay

anything

spy, almost cry, stop - don't try, accept it and let it die, everything you're feeling is a lie ( Read more... )

it grows, it fades, it's encouraged and teased so it grows some more, it's contradicting, it's confusing, it's a mystery... it's killing me, but it's not ( Read more... )

i think i have a crush on him. But i`m not too sure. I mean, I don`t see him too often and I know our hang outs won`t be any more frequent than this. But when I do see him... It`s not so much butterflies as it is smiles, intrigue, observation and a variation of ease. I shared with him in one night more than I`ve told my closest circle of friends in ( Read more... )

a religous view on life, so technical, so stush. a spiritual view on life, more simple, more self considerate, more liberal. i've experienced what it is to be both and momentarily during this height of my youth, i choose to feel guilt free about the poisonous choices i make. to hear your version, not admittingly judgemental, but reminding myself of ( Read more... )

16. im not sure what happened when i was 16, but it was definitely when shitty things kicked into high gear. it was also a year where friendship was family, and family was distant to say the least. so much has happened, has changed since then... and yet i feel trapped at 16. actually i feel trapped in general. i think for the most of my conscious ( Read more... )

MONDAY ( Read more... )

i found myself in a position that
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there's something about this one where the way it's so easy and slow is throwing me off. i wanna think maybe it's me, maybe i'm just used to a certain way. but it's not me. it's him. and the more i learn the more i feel it'll be worth it in the end but the end is seeming so far. then again i'm not exactly in any sort of rush. which is why it works ( Read more... )