I would like to get involved in crime.

college feels kind of like stumbling up and down a maze of stairways leading nowhere in particular.

i'm not sure where any of this is going, but i suppose i'm making progress.

EDIT

Process is more important than outcome
When the outcome drives the process we will only ever go to where we've already been. If process drives outcome we may not know where ( Read more... )

Some days I'm completely focused, totally there. Other days I contemplate just taking off again. 
Then I remind myself I'm not in highschool anymore.. the 'I miss you' texts don't help either.
I wonder if 6am mornings become easier when one gets older
I got high before class today.
I've changed.

As I get older, friends around me get into long term or committed relationships, they move in together, get married, whatever..
It's not like they become different people but they tend to lose compromise their individual identities to make room for the other ( Read more... )

I'm running for the bus before sunrise and likewise returning home after dark ( Read more... )

The individual's freedom of mind is fettered by the ignominy of his financial dependence, his freedom of action trembles in the face of public opinion, his moral superiority collapses in a morass of inferior relationships, and his desire to dominate ends in a pitiful craving to be loved. It is now the unconscious that takes care of the relation to ( Read more... )

coping mechanism kicking in, semi turns me into a robot.
inhibits what little personality i muster up for crowds and social events,
it's some second spirit lurking in my blood, a shadow clouding my brainwaves
a chilling invasion, a destructive army of long work, class, and study hours
i wake up, feeling empty

Complete stories are against my nature in this particular blog. Stringing together incomplete thoughts and passing them as meaningful poetic ..regurgitation, is terrible writing. However, they are a decent reflection of the senseless hormonal bullshit state of my insides, for that matter. Writing is not one of my strengths. My sentences lack flow ( Read more... )

i don't remember writing some of these entries ( Read more... )

power becomes warrior
little warrior needs a cause baby
maybe i'll just have to make one.
i want a revolution?
then i must provoke enough reason to start one
i want to know what it feels like to fight for something?
i must facilitate a war..