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Title: Empty
Fandom: Law and Order: SVU
Rating: PG
Word Count: 250
Characters: Casey Novak / Olivia Benson
Summary / Notes: Casey's thoughts once she learns that Alex is still alive. Spoilers for 5.04 "Loss" and 6.16 "Ghost". Casey's point of view. For the "Lonely" Prompt at 10_hurt_comfort
"But who else is going to get you out of trouble?”
Her voice burns in my memory. It was never a voice I thought I would hear, but now that I have I can’t stop imagining it. I hear her saying your name, telling her she loves you, comforting you. Everything.
How could you not have told me? I trusted you, Olivia. I thought our relationship was something special. I can understand you the police officer not telling me the assistant district attorney. Doing so would have endangered an innocent woman’s life. But as my girlfriend, you should have told me. I trusted you.
What does this mean for our relationship? Does anything that happened in the past seven months mean anything to you? Or was this whole thing just a sham? Is this just temporary until Alex finally gets out of Witness Protection? Was your heart really in any of our decisions, or were you just tolerating me because you knew it would not be permanent? Did you mean it when you told me you loved me, or are you just good at playing the role of a woman who has moved on?
Before today, I thought I knew the answer. I thought we were golden. I could have talked to you about any of this. Now I just don’t know. I don’t even know how to approach you about this. I’m too afraid that you’ll continue lying to me.
Never in our relationship have I felt more alone.
Fandom: Law and Order: SVU
Rating: PG
Word Count: 250
Characters: Casey Novak / Olivia Benson
Summary / Notes: Casey's thoughts once she learns that Alex is still alive. Spoilers for 5.04 "Loss" and 6.16 "Ghost". Casey's point of view. For the "Lonely" Prompt at 10_hurt_comfort
"But who else is going to get you out of trouble?”
Her voice burns in my memory. It was never a voice I thought I would hear, but now that I have I can’t stop imagining it. I hear her saying your name, telling her she loves you, comforting you. Everything.
How could you not have told me? I trusted you, Olivia. I thought our relationship was something special. I can understand you the police officer not telling me the assistant district attorney. Doing so would have endangered an innocent woman’s life. But as my girlfriend, you should have told me. I trusted you.
What does this mean for our relationship? Does anything that happened in the past seven months mean anything to you? Or was this whole thing just a sham? Is this just temporary until Alex finally gets out of Witness Protection? Was your heart really in any of our decisions, or were you just tolerating me because you knew it would not be permanent? Did you mean it when you told me you loved me, or are you just good at playing the role of a woman who has moved on?
Before today, I thought I knew the answer. I thought we were golden. I could have talked to you about any of this. Now I just don’t know. I don’t even know how to approach you about this. I’m too afraid that you’ll continue lying to me.
Never in our relationship have I felt more alone.