wasn't born to walk on water
This is terrifying. I wouldn't have even known there was a war going on if I had never met Thundereagle. I would have been just another ignorant Muggle while all these people were fighting and getting themselves killed all around me. Sometimes I read the newspapers and they scare me so badly that I have to call Thundereagle's Dad over while he's at work, because I'm too jumpy and I need someone to calm me down. Just by marrying me Thundie could get himself killed. My Jack will be a little outcast too.
It's just wrong, bringing him into this world. I want somebody to tell me that I'm not a lunatic for having a baby with a wizard. A couple of years ago it would have sounded even more insane to me.
After all this, and after all that happened to me, my husband won't even touch me. He makes excuses not to and won't tell me the real reason why. I know it anyway. He's afraid. Afraid to touch his own wife and here I am afraid to be without him.
I wish I had somebody close to talk to about all this other than my baby and my father-in-law. Can't tell my father-in-law about his son anyway. My other option is to talk to Dylan, but I'm scared about doing that too.
I'm starting to see a pattern here. A trend really, in the newspapers. I don't know what it was like before all this violence, I'm new to all of this, but I don't think I can imagine it much differently anyway. You witches and wizards are violent and angry people. I just hope it's not by nature.
My son will be one of you some day.