A Passing Thought [2]
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I realised today as I sat in the library doing some biology homework that was due in two hours later that I have become inherently lazy and unmotivated, I realise that if I actually worked a little harder then I could probably achieve what my brain is capable of. The problem doesn't lie there though, I am not lazy about the things I am passionate for, I am capable of learning concepts and ideas that are far above my age but when it comes to exams at school I despise them. They test nothing of me except my ability to memorise things... and when it comes to me my memory is odd, eclectic and sporadic at what it keeps close to hand and what it decides is less relevant is gone to a recycle bin or a file cabinet in my mind. I can't stand tests for that simple reason I can't stand school because they have to teach me to memorise concepts for a test and it is no doubt that I will never need to recall it again.
I remember the first time I felt disenchanted with school, it was in year five when we had moved to Milton Keynes. Before then school followed the curriculum but it was more project based and more about learning yourself. I moved and suddenly spoon feeding for memory was the purpose, I find it a miracle that I have held out this long in a schooling institution being treated like a mind that exists to only be told things. I can no longer pursue my exact interests, I can no longer ask questions to my teachers that I used to. I once asked why 1+1=2 and I was responded with answers that I was an idiot from my class mates and my teacher replied that it did and also that it had nothing to do with what we were learning.
Perhaps I had a bad batch of teachers I have had some that have made my learning as engaging as it can be for the task they have to do. We all have to jump through the education hoops the government has laid for us. I just am fed up of being treated like a show animal who is only capable of jumping through hoops, I know I am more than that and they only way I can show it to them is to jump and make it through their plan. Then I am headed for freedom, only then can I finally do what my mind wants to do. The big question here is can I make it that long or will I become an adult who despises learning and closes my mind to the world around me?
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Runaway by Linkin Park
I realised today as I sat in the library doing some biology homework that was due in two hours later that I have become inherently lazy and unmotivated, I realise that if I actually worked a little harder then I could probably achieve what my brain is capable of. The problem doesn't lie there though, I am not lazy about the things I am passionate for, I am capable of learning concepts and ideas that are far above my age but when it comes to exams at school I despise them. They test nothing of me except my ability to memorise things... and when it comes to me my memory is odd, eclectic and sporadic at what it keeps close to hand and what it decides is less relevant is gone to a recycle bin or a file cabinet in my mind. I can't stand tests for that simple reason I can't stand school because they have to teach me to memorise concepts for a test and it is no doubt that I will never need to recall it again.
I remember the first time I felt disenchanted with school, it was in year five when we had moved to Milton Keynes. Before then school followed the curriculum but it was more project based and more about learning yourself. I moved and suddenly spoon feeding for memory was the purpose, I find it a miracle that I have held out this long in a schooling institution being treated like a mind that exists to only be told things. I can no longer pursue my exact interests, I can no longer ask questions to my teachers that I used to. I once asked why 1+1=2 and I was responded with answers that I was an idiot from my class mates and my teacher replied that it did and also that it had nothing to do with what we were learning.
Perhaps I had a bad batch of teachers I have had some that have made my learning as engaging as it can be for the task they have to do. We all have to jump through the education hoops the government has laid for us. I just am fed up of being treated like a show animal who is only capable of jumping through hoops, I know I am more than that and they only way I can show it to them is to jump and make it through their plan. Then I am headed for freedom, only then can I finally do what my mind wants to do. The big question here is can I make it that long or will I become an adult who despises learning and closes my mind to the world around me?
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Runaway by Linkin Park