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[rialc]

This is getting rediculous. Sometimes I hate being a woman. I think it is incredibly ironic that my resolution this year was to try and emrace my femininity (sp?) more than I have in the past to work on becoming a woman after God's own heart. I've got it down except for these few days a month where its absolute hell. A gunshot wound between my

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[almostincognito]

Terribly sorry, I know that you are going through so much right now.

But you don't have to embrace your femininity to be a woman after God's heart. God will take you just as you are, he doesn't want just girly girls!

[rialc]

Oh, I know that, but I just felt like He was calling me to become a gentler person. You know, quit hitting Joseph all the time, and trying to put on such a tough air all the time. It was mostly just to try and hide what Brad did to me. To forget what he took from me. I guess that's what the whole embracing my womanhood is all about. Not becoming a girly girl (belive me, I can get grungy and rough with the best of them still!) but allowing myself to be a woman again, and be ok with it. Accepting that it wasn't something to hide from. Yes, God will take me just as I am, but God can love through me so much more if I can love myself and what I am! Do you see what I'm saying? Gotta get back to work. 30 more min and then I'm free to go home and but on those blessed blue jeans... I can do this!