Ever had an idea hit you right between the eyes? One just hit me in a similar manner. Kinda frightening, but I think I like it. Better yet, I think I'm going to follow it. It will deffinately take some time and planning but heck, why not. Thanks for making me a fighter...

*looks panicked. searches for brick wall. runs smack into it again. smiles contently through blood trickling from nose* There you are. I've been wondering where you've been ( Read more... )

I want a retreat again. I want to go away. I want to disappear. Not in a bad way. Just in a, take my books and my writing pad and go somewhere else. I feel as if I desperately need it. Especially after what I fear is about to happen. You ever have that feeling that something is going to happen and its going to hurt so incredibly bad right ( Read more... )

Your IQ Is 115
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I just realized something. I think yesterday was the 3 year anniversary of my opening this silly little journal. What a journey it has been. Oh what I would give to go back to that simpler night with Jamie and Megan and Mike and God. We might have hated each other and been afraid to say it, but you guys have to admit it, we had some good times ( Read more... )

Trust. Its just such a hard concept for me, but it seems to be where all the answers lie. Silly Clair... If only I could figure out a way to figure all this out before the fall. Lord, I know I need but ask, but will you take me back once again? I fell, but I'm done down here in the mud. Silly me, I thought... well, that's not so important ( Read more... )

Torn ( Read more... )

I really need to vent, to talk to someone, to be held, to be told its going to be ok, and then to stand and be strong and walk away. I don't know if livejournal is even a good thing anymore. I just sit here and my thoughts get all discombobulated, and misinterpreted. I need my best friend. I don't have one anymore. Its really sad to wake up ( Read more... )

Well that was interesting. Spent yesterday in Alabama with my mom and Amy. Went better than I expected, but not like any of us could have planned or hoped. I think it was a very good thing all around, but I am so emotionally hung over right now I'm about to fall over! More to come soon...

Yeah, and then something happens... Scares the ever loving crap out of you and you think hmm, wonder if I should tell someone about that, or if that would just get me admitted somewhere again? You try to hang out with your supposed best friend, but he is distant as usual these days, which is fine, you guys have gone your seperate ways, and for ( Read more... )