I'm sorry all...just venting loudly

[riashasi]

Alright...this is sap...this is total sap. This is probably the worst quantity of gooey horrible writing I have ever produced...

Don't read unless you really feel the need to.

As for why I posted, I just needed to get it out.

Once before I held you close
my deepest heart's desire
I've wanted nothing quite so much
as your eyes, your lips, your fire

But then I realized one day
that rare I held you near
and when I could not keep you close
then came the dark and fear

I did not know how to hold you
when I could not touch your face
Lost in feelings never known
I quickly lost all grace

I ran away to hid myself
so that I wouldn't have to know
That all I held inside myself
was pain and me alone

Pain subsided, truths reformed
Too late I understood
But all that was there left for me
Was why and if and could

I wish that I could have you back
though ask I could not do
I want you to be happy
and I've nothing for you

Sweetness of your lips
Smile in your eyes
The light within your soul
I love you...