on poor health, snowfall

[ricepaper]

a thin snow fell without sound, silhouetted against the black shadows of trees in the fragile light of dusk. the landscape whitened, became more plain. the rising moon, too, was thin. in this way, we were lulled to sleep

Comments

[cyrenafame]

i wait for your entries like i wait for the holidays.

[ricepaper]

what a kind thing to say. :) though i think the rarity of these entries makes them seem more special than they really are. :)

[tree]

this is a wistful lullaby. beautiful, like you.

[ricepaper]

you make me blush. :)
thankyou, my girl.

[tree]

it makes me happy that i can look at these pictures and recognise elements now. like the mirror. i have seen that mirror. i have looked into it. i know where it lives.

i like that. :)

[ricepaper]

i am spending lots of time now in the office/spare bedroom studying for monday's exam, and, as the room has been permanently suffused with your aura, i am brought many happy memories. thought today about your perhaps-too-loud query while shirt shopping for our night on the town. :) it was so good to have you here. which means, ofcourse, that at the very least, you must stop by for some time en route to scotland. we're right on the way! :)

[avatraxiom]

I think that not only am I enjoying your writing, I'm finally beginning to understand what's going on in your life by reading it! :-D

-Max

[ricepaper]

you're right, that these entries aren't often a direct life narrative.
this is probably the first time i've attempted to write about chronic illness, making peace with it, i suppose.

[avatraxiom]

Yeah. I didn't know that your illness was chronic--what exactly is wrong?

-Max

[ricepaper]

well, i have a list of symptoms, ailments, and allergies five miles long, which i'm sure doesn't interest you. :) as for "what's wrong," it depends on how you choose to view things. i could tell you that all three of my doshas are long-standingly out of balance and that my prana is greatly diminished. i could tell you that my qi is utterly dysregulated. (though hopefully the doshas and prana and qi are on their way to being repaired, through my efforts and those of some great practitioners.) if you're talking about a modern western allopathic explanation, well, the jury's still out on that one, and they mostly throw around fairly nondescriptive and don't-quite-fit diagnoses like "chronic fatigue syndrome" and "fibromyalgia." the most recent theories include innate immune dysfunction and/or persistent epstein-barr virus infection. the long and short of it is that i'm having an increasingly harder time going to school and doing normal activities of daily living. so how's that for being more than you ever wanted to know? :)

[danbigler]

Your words are lovely.

[ricepaper]

please accept my apologies for responding to your comment so long after it was posted.
and please accept my thanks as well. :)