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Vegas.2
So far its night #2 in Vegas and both nights have ended with some kind of heated emotions between Ruby and Casey. In both times I have tried to play the UN and try to fix the problems, repair the situations, and help both sides understand the other, but in both times that have just ended up fighting and I am quickly getting tired of trying to fix ( Read more... ) -
Fears and Regrets
When people look back at their lives they have a tendency to think that life in the past was easier, more fun or more fulfilling. Every time I look back all I see are the regrets of my choices, the pains of the consequences, and the heartache I caused people ( Read more... ) -
I Had A Dream
I had a dream I was in high school and I had gotten Saturday school. So I woke up early on Saturday, drove down to the coast, and meet the large group of Saturday shoolers. As usual I got there late so I was missing what work I had to do. I picked a group of kids, and pretended like I was part of the group. Sue Joyce was leading that group and she ( Read more... ) -
It's All Downhill From Here
So since the last I talked to you, let me update you what has been happening.
SBS:
Got kicked out because I failed second semester. Lots of tears, lots of worries, surprising no feeling of being a failure until I got home. What was even stranger was in hindsight I saw that when the lady told me that she got that that should be a time for me and God, ( Read more... ) -
if you are a window, ill gladly be the frame
openness ( Read more... ) -
Unbreakable
I was watching the movie Unbreakable and it hit me: we literally can contact anyone, at any time, and in any place, yet we still feel lonely, and still feel like we need others to notice us. It seems that the more people we know, the lonelier we get,the more money we get, the less we value the things in life ( Read more... ) -
Relationships
So I have hit a bit of a conundrum since Genesis week; I have had growing feelings for this girl named Abbey and tonight everything had the potential to start, but collapsed ( Read more... ) -
Anger
Tonight I got aggravated, the kind of aggravated where I just want to cause someone pain. And in my anger I can't stop remembering my old math teacher and his happy, calm, peace that he carried with him. I can feel it defuse my anger from the inside out, and replaces it with a feeling of foolishness. I wonder if he ever punched someone, or if he ( Read more... ) -
Emotional Rollercoaster
So recently I have been dealing with some emotional up's and down's that I thought might help me feel better about if I wrote about them ( Read more... ) -
Long Term Relationship
I realized the other week that I have hit a point in my live where I am finally ready for a long term relationship. Now I understand this is a bit late to commerate the event, but I want this to be a marker in my journal so when I look back I can remember it was Genesis week on SBS.