Love is a fantasy

[riding_wildfire]

Snuggling some sweet dude the other night after we'd had a wrestling match, make-out session and bitten the shit out of each other, he was probably still horny as hell after I wound him up, let him wind me up, and then realized it was going way too fast, panicked and shut down as I often do, which he was probably baffled by as they often are, and,

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[supermanz]

You're a dumbass. And I can say that because this sounds like something I would write and I KNOW I'm a dumbass, at least when it comes to romantic matters and my simultaneous desire to be in an actual loving relationship and my desire to live like a recluse with no human contact so no one could ever hurt me. I'd go on but it would depress me.

1- Matchbox 20 'Push'

2- I wanna say something by Hinder but I honestly don't know

3- Smashmouth 'Allstar'

4- Lonestar 'You Don't Know What Love Is'

5- It's a country song and it's gonna kill me because I'll know it as soon as I look it up

6- Garth 'What She's Doing Now'

7- 3EB 'Semi-Charmed Life' (one of my karaoke songs)

8- only one I really don't have a clue on

Too easy

[riding_wildfire]

Tell me why any of that makes me a dumbass.

2 is Homecoming Queen by Hinder
4 - aaaengk! wrong! Well, right singer, wrong song; that is What About Now, one of my driving songs
5 - Baby Blue by George Strait
6 - <3 <3 <3 Garth!
7 - one of my favorite songs ever. Right up there with Shimmer and Deep Inside of You by the same band. I sing this while driving since my truck has no radio, so it made me smile that it's one of your karaoke songs.
8 - Live Like We're Dying by Kris Allen, the verses are better than the chorus

[supermanz]

The short of it is that you, like me, create your own misery, mostly. You want to be in a relationship where you genuinely love the other person and the other person genuinely loves you. For you. Doesn't just tolerate your flaws, but accepts and loves the whole you and in doing so makes you better for it, and vice versa. And I'm sure you could have that opportunity if you weren't so close-minded to it. If you weren't so jaded (even if you have good reason to be) and distrustful and put so much pressure on everyone you meet to potentially be IT. Or something. I'm starting to ramble and I'm beginning to question if I'm responding to you or just chastising myself.

Semi-Charmed Life was a song I played over and over and over again ad infinitum for years. The un-cut version of course

Garth was the first artist I was truly ever really into.

[riding_wildfire]

Well, I can't help it that I get horny but I feel like I'm not supposed to do that with anyone just for the hell of it. I'm as bad as a dude about getting in a hurry, only I'm rushing them to be It so I can get some without feeling dirty for months afterward, where they're just rushing to get in my pants without any such guilt factor or even desire for closeness.