By Your Side (Last Side)
Title : By Your Side
Author : Rien
Rating : PG
Words : 2343
Yamachii~<3
Wusha! I managed to post something this 11.11.11 date~~
Uuumm, Thank you so much to read this after the end.
I know I have force this chap to out..
But, I just want to post something. Since my last update is long ago..^^
Comment will really love~<3
- Yuri~
You say you want to see my research place.
Actually, what kind of building you want to make a design?
Are you drew something right there?
Or do you just drew my handsome face and my sexy body? -
"Idiot.." Chinen throw his cell phone to the side of paper which scattered on the table where he sits in this park today. He was drawing for his graduation project. A kind of building for research, such as Yamada current workspace. He stared at the building form in this hospital he choose this park for the better view. He had an examination with Yuto before..
He stuck out his tongue when he saw Yamada waving at him from behind his glass window office. His nurse seem got into that room with panic, and make his lover leave that room quickly.
"Fuuh .." Chinen dropped his head onto the table, sighed, that nurse had disturbed his fun. From begin he's not interesting to draw anything, instead he just staring at Yamada who was working in that room.
"Plan .." he muttered. He became more weak when he remembered what Yuto had said.
'You can make a list of plan what you want to do in your life .. It can make you more excited to live.’
He turned around a pencil in his finger and smiled. There is a lot of plan what he wants to do with Ryosuke..
But making such a plan would only make him cry, he knows his time will not that long to realize all his sweet plans. The only plans in his brain now is, he just want graduated from university.
"You draw the buildings'?”
"Ah .. " Chinen raised his head and was surprised to see a little boy sitting in the chair in front of him.
"On the career day event in my school, one of my friend want to become an architect. He brought his father's job, and it is a picture of a building on paper." Chinen smiled, and nodded.
"I’m an architect .."
"You? Wooaaah .. What do you do in this hospital?”
“I'm sick. And I want to make a research building such like in this hospital.." Chinen knows who this kid. But when he look at his inocent face could erased all the hatred which usually he yelling out from his lips.
"You're amazing!" Chinen just smiled again.
"May I sit in here and see you drawing?" Chinen was silent for a moment, he did not want to meet with Shida if later this kid mother come to pick him up.
"Where is your mother?"
"My mother still working, she just arrived this afternoon."
"Okay .." They were silent while Chinen re-drawing his design. He smiled when he heard Ryota whistling slightly to lighten the mood.
"You think what the most important part from a building '?"
“Uhmm .. " Chinen was silent, he don’t want to look stupid infront of his lover phedophile boyfriend.
"A foundation .. "
Haha! Chinen laughed inside his heart when he saw Ryota’s confused face.
"A Pole .. "
" Oh .. "
"A building can not stand if no one supports it."
"Like the bones in human body? " Chinen nodded, indeed this boy is smart.
"What do you think were heart also need a buffer, a support?" Chinen raised his eyebrows.
"Heart?"
"What a buffer for heart?"
"Your feelings?"
"Someone make my heart broken.."
"Uhmmm .."
What Ryosuke do something to this child? "
“Did someone make you upset?" Ryota nodding softly.
"He said he wanted to go to the person he loves.. At first I think he only love my mother and me.."
Chinen feel guilty. Yamada left this amazing child only for him who can die any time.
"A buffer for heart is ‘love’. Am I right? And like the function of building poles. Our hearts will not die, as long as there is love that support it. Believe me, as long as you believe there are someone who love you by your side, you can be strong forever. Ryota.." Chinen smiled and started collecting all paper in that table.
"You still have a mother and a grandfather who loves you, right? Sorry, if I'm selfish and take him from your side .. But I don’t have anyone else.." Chinen stroked Ryota’s hair.
"I have to go .." he rushed go from there and disappeared behind the trees, leave the confuse Ryota.
"Ryota!" not long after Chinen departure, Shida come to that park.
"Why are you get out from your room! Is cold in here! With whom have you been here?" Shida cleaned Ryota’s sweater from the fallen leaves.
"Someone who knows my name .."
"Heh?"
"Mom, Ryoue must have a reason why he left us .." Shida eyes widened when she heard that words out from Ryota’s lips.
"He don’t have a reason to stay on our side if he can’t love us anymore. He might be want to be in someone side who he love, to support that person heart. "
"Ryota .."
"Mom, I love you, mom .." Shida nodded her head, her tears flowing and she hugged her son tightly.
"I'll always be on your side to support you heart from who want to destroyed it."
****
-One month later-
"FUCK!" Yamada pulled a broken glass that pierced his foot. He had a big fight with Chinen tonight. Chinen had slammed and thrown all things that he can reach, for making a fuss. He cried loudly and almost stabbed himself.
"Fuck.." he say that words again, and this time his tears flowed when he look at the design paper for his lover graduation project has been torn apart and damaged. Yamada collect that paper rips, and his tears flowed more profusely.
‘Yuto said you helped his research..’
‘And today, Yuto said that my condition isn’t improve.’
‘He said Yamada managed to the real disease that I have suffered. Whether he consciously or not, but he mentioned your name.’
‘And he said from your research, the results tell if the disease is worse than Yuto’s first estimates.’
After this Yamada for sure would killed Yuto.
Chinen really mad at him..
‘Why are you still able to come to me with that straight face as if nothing had happened?! You are the most knowed how much longer I could live! You the most know I'll die! And you still appeared before me! Why did you do that, Ryosuke! Why you help my disease research?!! Are you never love me? No one of doctor could stand to have examined his family or lover disease! They're just going to cry and couldn’t do that work! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! ARE YOU HAVE KNOWN WHAT MY DISEASE SINCE THE FIRST TIME! AND YOU JUST WANT ME TO BE YOUR OBJECT FOR YOUR RESEARCH?!’
Yamada covered his face with his trembling hands. His tears flowed so much soaked his face down to his neck ..
Stupid..
During this time he checked all of Yuri's disease, with hard effort to erased from his mind if at that time he was examined his lover desease. He didn’t know that something like this would happen..
****
"OH, SHIT! ARRRRGHHHH! SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!" Chinen throw all the papers on his desk. Then he let his body fell to the floor, laying in there. The smell of delicious sandwich at the dining table managed to disturbing his mind. But he was not in the mood to eat anything..
If all that calculation is correct.. His life is only 2 months away..
‘Yuri, Yuri.. I’m so sorry, I know I'm stupid. But all what I do is not to make you doubt with my love like this. I cried, Yuri.. just asked Yuto like what I cried when I found all the true from your desease. He knew I’m hurt so much when doing this research and immediately told me to stop working at this.. But I don’t want.. Because I don’t know..
I don’t know, who else in this world that could save you..
Just me, Yuri..'
He still lay beside the scattered paper. And he quickly woke up when he saw a different paper than the others..
Its his design..
Yamada has stuck that paper again. From a small torn pieces to the complete picture.
"Ryosuke.." he couldn’t hold back his tears again. He immediately took his coat and ran out his apartment.
He want say something to that doctor..
****
Yamada, Yuto and Keito and with the other two friends was in the research room. When his nurse entered his office and said a young man wanted to meet him.
"Doctor Yamada!" That young man already get into his office before he could comment to that nurse’s report.
"Please, help me .." He knelt down and locked his eyes with Yamada’s.
"Please try more harder. Give me six months...
Please let me live another six months .."
All of that doctors were surprised to hear the young man's request.
"Please.. Aren’t you a good doctor?" And when he saw the first tears running down his cheeks.. without thinking, Yamada jumped of the table and hug that vulnerable body tightly.
"Please, Ryosuke.. You're right, only you who can help me, now. Please .. please .."
"Shhh.. stop begging. Without you do that, I will make you live another one hundred years.."
****
He hugged his lover body closely, not wanting to be apart as he kissed his lover deeply and frantically. His tongue lapped all around that beautiful lips begging for enterance. Once inside he took that tongue in there to play with his, but suddenly had pulled away..
“Nnghh.. stop it.. I still drawing..” said his lover, make Yamada pouted.
“Can you a little fast? I will wait in your bed room.”
“What are you doing in my room?!”
“Like I said, waiting for you..”
“That will a thousand hour..”
“Oh, really? So, I just get naked in there.. I’ll be wait Yuri~”
Chinen fell silent. He can feel the excitement shivers in his spine. Although he still wanted to complete his project, but his brain couldn’t think of it at the times like this.
"Ryosuke!" He quickly ran to his room ~
****
If I was told to tell my past. I prefer to remain silent..
Once, when I was stuck in that dark world..
Without someone to hold..
Without ever know the mean of love..
All the people who closest to me are gone, my mother, my brother and my best friend..
They leave me all alone..
I always thought, the world is so cruel to me..
And God does not exist..
But when I met him..
Smell his scent like this.
Feel his warm embrace in my entire body.
Without thinking I immediately said..
Thank you God..
I love him so much.
I’m very glad to know he loves me too..
I don’t care anymore if I should die in the end.
My happiness is..
I sure, I had found all my happiness in him..
****
"Yuri! Yuri! Please, be calm! You will fine.. I'm here, honey.. It's okay.." Yamada hold Chinen’s hand tightly. Blood soaked his lover clothe and body..
"We'll be right there. I'll save you.. Please, fight a little more ..."
Two months, after Chinen’s treatment, something like this more often to happen.
Chinen treatment not make any progress.. as well as Yamada’s research ..
But, he will not give up to safe the guy who he loved so much this world. At least he want to make his lover wish come true..
His graduation
****
What would I say? I'm confused..
Thank you for loving me.
And this is a wonderful gift for me..
You managed to made me live for 6 months..
You are my greatest doctor..
You’re my greatest lover..
Don’t forget to dreamed about me when you're sad, heh..
I'm sure I will always smile in your dreams..
I will always by your side..
Believe me, Ryosuke..-
****
-Seven months later-
"Yamada?" That young doctor was distracted and looked at Shida's who surprised him.
"Ah, that's true I heard you took a college for your high degree?" Yamada said with a smile and walked toward Shida. Ryota was standing beside her, but he still think what the best word for that kid, they could hardly see each other for 8 months.
"What are you doing here?" asked Shida.
"Ah, attended the graduation ceremony. I took my lover certification degree.." Yamada’s voice faded in the final sentence.
"Oh, where is SHE?"
"HE died last week.."
“Ah.." Shida shut her mouth wide open, suprised to hear both of HE and DIED. Yamada smiled at Ryota who looked at him with his pityfull eyes.
“You have a pity of me, Ryota?” Yamada’s eyes filled with tears and he knelt in front of Ryota.
"Ryoue .." Ryota lightly tapped his shoulder.
"You will fine, you still have a lot of people who love you.. All the people who love you will be on your side."
"Umm .. thank you .."
"They will support your heart .."
“Yes, they will..
Yuri, will..”
~I told you
I would return
When the robin makes his nest
I ain't ever comin' back
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry~
~Weezer- Butterfly~
****
FIN
Owari..
I’m supposed to explained what kind of research building Yuri have draw. That have a butterfly shape and will be Yamada permanent research house. But I forget to make that and when I finished I just lazy to change it..T_T
Stupid..
I’m supposed to die.. not Yuri..hehe
Jaa~
I will make I Love My Asisstant next update.. hope I can have more time..
Author : Rien
Rating : PG
Words : 2343
Yamachii~<3
Wusha! I managed to post something this 11.11.11 date~~
Uuumm, Thank you so much to read this after the end.
I know I have force this chap to out..
But, I just want to post something. Since my last update is long ago..^^
Comment will really love~<3
- Yuri~
You say you want to see my research place.
Actually, what kind of building you want to make a design?
Are you drew something right there?
Or do you just drew my handsome face and my sexy body? -
"Idiot.." Chinen throw his cell phone to the side of paper which scattered on the table where he sits in this park today. He was drawing for his graduation project. A kind of building for research, such as Yamada current workspace. He stared at the building form in this hospital he choose this park for the better view. He had an examination with Yuto before..
He stuck out his tongue when he saw Yamada waving at him from behind his glass window office. His nurse seem got into that room with panic, and make his lover leave that room quickly.
"Fuuh .." Chinen dropped his head onto the table, sighed, that nurse had disturbed his fun. From begin he's not interesting to draw anything, instead he just staring at Yamada who was working in that room.
"Plan .." he muttered. He became more weak when he remembered what Yuto had said.
'You can make a list of plan what you want to do in your life .. It can make you more excited to live.’
He turned around a pencil in his finger and smiled. There is a lot of plan what he wants to do with Ryosuke..
But making such a plan would only make him cry, he knows his time will not that long to realize all his sweet plans. The only plans in his brain now is, he just want graduated from university.
"You draw the buildings'?”
"Ah .. " Chinen raised his head and was surprised to see a little boy sitting in the chair in front of him.
"On the career day event in my school, one of my friend want to become an architect. He brought his father's job, and it is a picture of a building on paper." Chinen smiled, and nodded.
"I’m an architect .."
"You? Wooaaah .. What do you do in this hospital?”
“I'm sick. And I want to make a research building such like in this hospital.." Chinen knows who this kid. But when he look at his inocent face could erased all the hatred which usually he yelling out from his lips.
"You're amazing!" Chinen just smiled again.
"May I sit in here and see you drawing?" Chinen was silent for a moment, he did not want to meet with Shida if later this kid mother come to pick him up.
"Where is your mother?"
"My mother still working, she just arrived this afternoon."
"Okay .." They were silent while Chinen re-drawing his design. He smiled when he heard Ryota whistling slightly to lighten the mood.
"You think what the most important part from a building '?"
“Uhmm .. " Chinen was silent, he don’t want to look stupid infront of his lover phedophile boyfriend.
"A foundation .. "
Haha! Chinen laughed inside his heart when he saw Ryota’s confused face.
"A Pole .. "
" Oh .. "
"A building can not stand if no one supports it."
"Like the bones in human body? " Chinen nodded, indeed this boy is smart.
"What do you think were heart also need a buffer, a support?" Chinen raised his eyebrows.
"Heart?"
"What a buffer for heart?"
"Your feelings?"
"Someone make my heart broken.."
"Uhmmm .."
What Ryosuke do something to this child? "
“Did someone make you upset?" Ryota nodding softly.
"He said he wanted to go to the person he loves.. At first I think he only love my mother and me.."
Chinen feel guilty. Yamada left this amazing child only for him who can die any time.
"A buffer for heart is ‘love’. Am I right? And like the function of building poles. Our hearts will not die, as long as there is love that support it. Believe me, as long as you believe there are someone who love you by your side, you can be strong forever. Ryota.." Chinen smiled and started collecting all paper in that table.
"You still have a mother and a grandfather who loves you, right? Sorry, if I'm selfish and take him from your side .. But I don’t have anyone else.." Chinen stroked Ryota’s hair.
"I have to go .." he rushed go from there and disappeared behind the trees, leave the confuse Ryota.
"Ryota!" not long after Chinen departure, Shida come to that park.
"Why are you get out from your room! Is cold in here! With whom have you been here?" Shida cleaned Ryota’s sweater from the fallen leaves.
"Someone who knows my name .."
"Heh?"
"Mom, Ryoue must have a reason why he left us .." Shida eyes widened when she heard that words out from Ryota’s lips.
"He don’t have a reason to stay on our side if he can’t love us anymore. He might be want to be in someone side who he love, to support that person heart. "
"Ryota .."
"Mom, I love you, mom .." Shida nodded her head, her tears flowing and she hugged her son tightly.
"I'll always be on your side to support you heart from who want to destroyed it."
****
-One month later-
"FUCK!" Yamada pulled a broken glass that pierced his foot. He had a big fight with Chinen tonight. Chinen had slammed and thrown all things that he can reach, for making a fuss. He cried loudly and almost stabbed himself.
"Fuck.." he say that words again, and this time his tears flowed when he look at the design paper for his lover graduation project has been torn apart and damaged. Yamada collect that paper rips, and his tears flowed more profusely.
‘Yuto said you helped his research..’
‘And today, Yuto said that my condition isn’t improve.’
‘He said Yamada managed to the real disease that I have suffered. Whether he consciously or not, but he mentioned your name.’
‘And he said from your research, the results tell if the disease is worse than Yuto’s first estimates.’
After this Yamada for sure would killed Yuto.
Chinen really mad at him..
‘Why are you still able to come to me with that straight face as if nothing had happened?! You are the most knowed how much longer I could live! You the most know I'll die! And you still appeared before me! Why did you do that, Ryosuke! Why you help my disease research?!! Are you never love me? No one of doctor could stand to have examined his family or lover disease! They're just going to cry and couldn’t do that work! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! ARE YOU HAVE KNOWN WHAT MY DISEASE SINCE THE FIRST TIME! AND YOU JUST WANT ME TO BE YOUR OBJECT FOR YOUR RESEARCH?!’
Yamada covered his face with his trembling hands. His tears flowed so much soaked his face down to his neck ..
Stupid..
During this time he checked all of Yuri's disease, with hard effort to erased from his mind if at that time he was examined his lover desease. He didn’t know that something like this would happen..
****
"OH, SHIT! ARRRRGHHHH! SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!" Chinen throw all the papers on his desk. Then he let his body fell to the floor, laying in there. The smell of delicious sandwich at the dining table managed to disturbing his mind. But he was not in the mood to eat anything..
If all that calculation is correct.. His life is only 2 months away..
‘Yuri, Yuri.. I’m so sorry, I know I'm stupid. But all what I do is not to make you doubt with my love like this. I cried, Yuri.. just asked Yuto like what I cried when I found all the true from your desease. He knew I’m hurt so much when doing this research and immediately told me to stop working at this.. But I don’t want.. Because I don’t know..
I don’t know, who else in this world that could save you..
Just me, Yuri..'
He still lay beside the scattered paper. And he quickly woke up when he saw a different paper than the others..
Its his design..
Yamada has stuck that paper again. From a small torn pieces to the complete picture.
"Ryosuke.." he couldn’t hold back his tears again. He immediately took his coat and ran out his apartment.
He want say something to that doctor..
****
Yamada, Yuto and Keito and with the other two friends was in the research room. When his nurse entered his office and said a young man wanted to meet him.
"Doctor Yamada!" That young man already get into his office before he could comment to that nurse’s report.
"Please, help me .." He knelt down and locked his eyes with Yamada’s.
"Please try more harder. Give me six months...
Please let me live another six months .."
All of that doctors were surprised to hear the young man's request.
"Please.. Aren’t you a good doctor?" And when he saw the first tears running down his cheeks.. without thinking, Yamada jumped of the table and hug that vulnerable body tightly.
"Please, Ryosuke.. You're right, only you who can help me, now. Please .. please .."
"Shhh.. stop begging. Without you do that, I will make you live another one hundred years.."
****
He hugged his lover body closely, not wanting to be apart as he kissed his lover deeply and frantically. His tongue lapped all around that beautiful lips begging for enterance. Once inside he took that tongue in there to play with his, but suddenly had pulled away..
“Nnghh.. stop it.. I still drawing..” said his lover, make Yamada pouted.
“Can you a little fast? I will wait in your bed room.”
“What are you doing in my room?!”
“Like I said, waiting for you..”
“That will a thousand hour..”
“Oh, really? So, I just get naked in there.. I’ll be wait Yuri~”
Chinen fell silent. He can feel the excitement shivers in his spine. Although he still wanted to complete his project, but his brain couldn’t think of it at the times like this.
"Ryosuke!" He quickly ran to his room ~
****
If I was told to tell my past. I prefer to remain silent..
Once, when I was stuck in that dark world..
Without someone to hold..
Without ever know the mean of love..
All the people who closest to me are gone, my mother, my brother and my best friend..
They leave me all alone..
I always thought, the world is so cruel to me..
And God does not exist..
But when I met him..
Smell his scent like this.
Feel his warm embrace in my entire body.
Without thinking I immediately said..
Thank you God..
I love him so much.
I’m very glad to know he loves me too..
I don’t care anymore if I should die in the end.
My happiness is..
I sure, I had found all my happiness in him..
****
"Yuri! Yuri! Please, be calm! You will fine.. I'm here, honey.. It's okay.." Yamada hold Chinen’s hand tightly. Blood soaked his lover clothe and body..
"We'll be right there. I'll save you.. Please, fight a little more ..."
Two months, after Chinen’s treatment, something like this more often to happen.
Chinen treatment not make any progress.. as well as Yamada’s research ..
But, he will not give up to safe the guy who he loved so much this world. At least he want to make his lover wish come true..
His graduation
****
- For you who always become my heart support.
What would I say? I'm confused..
Thank you for loving me.
And this is a wonderful gift for me..
You managed to made me live for 6 months..
You are my greatest doctor..
You’re my greatest lover..
Don’t forget to dreamed about me when you're sad, heh..
I'm sure I will always smile in your dreams..
I will always by your side..
Believe me, Ryosuke..-
****
-Seven months later-
"Yamada?" That young doctor was distracted and looked at Shida's who surprised him.
"Ah, that's true I heard you took a college for your high degree?" Yamada said with a smile and walked toward Shida. Ryota was standing beside her, but he still think what the best word for that kid, they could hardly see each other for 8 months.
"What are you doing here?" asked Shida.
"Ah, attended the graduation ceremony. I took my lover certification degree.." Yamada’s voice faded in the final sentence.
"Oh, where is SHE?"
"HE died last week.."
“Ah.." Shida shut her mouth wide open, suprised to hear both of HE and DIED. Yamada smiled at Ryota who looked at him with his pityfull eyes.
“You have a pity of me, Ryota?” Yamada’s eyes filled with tears and he knelt in front of Ryota.
"Ryoue .." Ryota lightly tapped his shoulder.
"You will fine, you still have a lot of people who love you.. All the people who love you will be on your side."
"Umm .. thank you .."
"They will support your heart .."
“Yes, they will..
Yuri, will..”
~I told you
I would return
When the robin makes his nest
I ain't ever comin' back
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry~
~Weezer- Butterfly~
****
FIN
Owari..
I’m supposed to explained what kind of research building Yuri have draw. That have a butterfly shape and will be Yamada permanent research house. But I forget to make that and when I finished I just lazy to change it..T_T
Stupid..
I’m supposed to die.. not Yuri..hehe
Jaa~
I will make I Love My Asisstant next update.. hope I can have more time..