Need a fucking cigarette NOW. I swear I'm five seconds from ripping someone's head off...and using their body for an ashtray.......Damnit....  I have the shakes now too.  Feh.

I went back to not smoking. And I swear I'm about to fucking cut someones throat. You never know how bad it is until you try to quit again. And as much as I want to justify the habit for certain reasons. SOMEONE won't let me do it.

Fucking baseball freak and his fucking lips...fucking A.

Don't even THINK about going to that party, Baseball Freak. And don't even THINK about making me go.

 ...Yamamoto....we..  need to talk.  Okay?

What the hell!?  I wake up with a pile of hairin my face.  A pile of hair in my face, none of which was mine.  And now, Ihave this guy attached to me by handcuffs? What the bloody hell is up withthat?!  It’s a sick and twisted joke, that’s what it is! It’s the Varia’s fault.  They did something, it’s the onlyanswer!  Damn, I need a cigarette lie... ( Read more... )

WELL. as long as they're here. I feel much better about the Tenth being someplace else!

Though, I'm really getting sick of playing the piano. It's like....tedious and makes me a little sick sometimes. bad memories never go away, damnit.

and this is like day 32 without a cigarette....

...I think I'm going to go insane.

Oh hell no.

No crazies allowed in paradise.

The power outage is the best freakin thing to happen. I don't have to go to work, don't have to drag suitcases or play the piano.

Though...I still want a damn cigarette. I wonder if I can bum a cigarette from someone...

I DON’T WANT TO CAMP IN THE DIRT. Ugh. I have nothing else to say about that. No showers, no real food…what’s up with that? I don’t care if the baseball freak thinks it’s going to be fun… he better keep me warm at night.

Well.  I had a good time at the festival. Though, the baseball freak was late because of his damn job.   It could have been worse though. If he didn't show up, I would have been very pissed.    It's bad enough the Tenth isn't here.  But, he's all I've got in this hellhole.

Damnit. I WANT A CIGARETTE. Damn underaged....BS