long overdue update
9:56 AM 3/21/2008
It's been a while since I've been able to update. I haven't had the chance to go out much since I still have no money and no one else to take care of my little one. I've been mostly staying at home, looking after my little boy and trying to look for a new job when I go out. We've had trouble with money since I left my job. The company is yet to give out my final pay and I'm still unsure as to when I'll actually get a hold of it.
I also thought about being a full-time mom until the baby becomes a toddler but apparently, that's not so practical anymore. Even with him earning more than the average employee, what with all the expenses for child necessities, it's still barely enough to keep us afloat and not nearly enough to save up for the future. Imagine if we lived by ourselves. We're still staying with my parents until we can save up for a place of our own. Well, at least I have a lot of help with raising my baby.
I was actually supposed to be working now but I think I made the mistake of not showing up and waiting for a better opportunity when I could've taken the first one. I guess I have to go out and look for something else and hope everything works out.
Life for me has been quite a journey so far. I've best and worst things happen to me and I think I can be proud and say that I'm still here, I'm still standing, I'm never giving up. Everything I've been through has made me what I am today. I have my friends and my family to thank for helping me out and just plain being there for me. And I also want to thank my son for being a wonderful little boy, a gift from the heavens.
Sorry if I seemed dramatic. I just felt like writing something other than what I usually do, which are mostly trivial. If I had the resources, I would write more.
7:40 PM 3/22/2008
I hate it when I have the urge to write something and when I'm ready to do so, I can't seem to think of anything. Not much has happened this past week. I couldn't stand just playing old school video games at home so I wanted to start writing again. I don't like having writers block at all. It makes me feel like I'm going to forget about my ideas, which happens most of the freaking time. And I end up berating myself for not writing down what I think when I'm thinking it just because I'm such a procrastinator - yeah, I'm a lazy person. I sometimes seem to be able to sit around and watch TV for hours on end. Of course, those days have gone. I don't have the luxury to keep acting like that anymore. I have someone to take care of now and I have to do my best otherwise, I wouldn't be able to raise a good person. I wouldn't want that. No parent would. I've been frustrated with a lot of things in my life but I wouldn't force my son to live out what I couldn't achieve. I will just be making sure that he gets everything he needs.
I get minimal time going online since I don't have a connection at home so bear with me. :D
It's been a while since I've been able to update. I haven't had the chance to go out much since I still have no money and no one else to take care of my little one. I've been mostly staying at home, looking after my little boy and trying to look for a new job when I go out. We've had trouble with money since I left my job. The company is yet to give out my final pay and I'm still unsure as to when I'll actually get a hold of it.
I also thought about being a full-time mom until the baby becomes a toddler but apparently, that's not so practical anymore. Even with him earning more than the average employee, what with all the expenses for child necessities, it's still barely enough to keep us afloat and not nearly enough to save up for the future. Imagine if we lived by ourselves. We're still staying with my parents until we can save up for a place of our own. Well, at least I have a lot of help with raising my baby.
I was actually supposed to be working now but I think I made the mistake of not showing up and waiting for a better opportunity when I could've taken the first one. I guess I have to go out and look for something else and hope everything works out.
Life for me has been quite a journey so far. I've best and worst things happen to me and I think I can be proud and say that I'm still here, I'm still standing, I'm never giving up. Everything I've been through has made me what I am today. I have my friends and my family to thank for helping me out and just plain being there for me. And I also want to thank my son for being a wonderful little boy, a gift from the heavens.
Sorry if I seemed dramatic. I just felt like writing something other than what I usually do, which are mostly trivial. If I had the resources, I would write more.
7:40 PM 3/22/2008
I hate it when I have the urge to write something and when I'm ready to do so, I can't seem to think of anything. Not much has happened this past week. I couldn't stand just playing old school video games at home so I wanted to start writing again. I don't like having writers block at all. It makes me feel like I'm going to forget about my ideas, which happens most of the freaking time. And I end up berating myself for not writing down what I think when I'm thinking it just because I'm such a procrastinator - yeah, I'm a lazy person. I sometimes seem to be able to sit around and watch TV for hours on end. Of course, those days have gone. I don't have the luxury to keep acting like that anymore. I have someone to take care of now and I have to do my best otherwise, I wouldn't be able to raise a good person. I wouldn't want that. No parent would. I've been frustrated with a lot of things in my life but I wouldn't force my son to live out what I couldn't achieve. I will just be making sure that he gets everything he needs.
I get minimal time going online since I don't have a connection at home so bear with me. :D