So, he has gone to Italy to ski. I keep looking at pictures and I want to go back to France and I want to go back to Italy and I want to relive the holiday weeks we spent together. He said he will buy one of those phone cards that lets you call internationally for pennies, but I think maybe we shouldn't speak everyday... in someways it just makes ( Read more... )

After running around, frantically packing things at mine and things at Vee's (I have realised I can fold things rather nicely in the contintental fashion, we settled to eat pasta and then ice cream infont of a horror flick that had one of the highest ratings of 'jumpy' moments ever. well, at least for me. We had to watch some boosh to get over it ( ( Read more... )

I had a real fright last night, I came home to find one of my lizards hadn't shed properly and she still had half a head of skin left on, including her eyelids (which can lead to infections and blindness and stuff) so I panicked loads and then spent ages, in three spearate sittings, rubbing gently at the skin with a wet cotton bud (reccomended by ( Read more... )

I am always so jealous of other people. Here we show our 'friends' snapshots of our lives that we want them to see. The happy bits, the sad bits, the controversial segments of really what is your average mediocre life. I say your, I mean mine. People have these tales, these pictures of art work, nights out, boyfriends, landscapes, animals, whatever ( Read more... )

I've not updated recently due to moving into a new house, re-starting Uni, spending massive amounts of time with my boyfriend who I only saw for three weeks out of fourteen over the summer holidays and learning about my new pets.

When I have pictures of these little darlings, I shall post. Other than this there isn't much to say.

Love xx

A little exchange Witek chose to share with me:

[20:47:54] sarah46 says: hi!!
[20:49:49] Witek says: Hi?
[20:50:10] sarah46 says: i'm french
[20:50:23] sarah46 says: i find you by chance
[20:50:27] Witek says: good for you
[20:50:44] sarah46 says: my name is sarah
[20:50:57] Witek says: thats unexpected

oh how I love my boyfriend.

Why am I so scared of people I used to embrace? Why does the thought of seeing people I used to spend my every weekend with make me want to throw up? Why am I so pathetic?

Why is everyone so much more beautiful than me?

Why do I feel so tainted, so pathetic, so :nothing: compared to people I hardly even know... people I don't know. People I have merely heard stories of. People I connect with words I've heard perhaps once or twice with regards to them, that become labels simply because it suits my self-loathing nature ( Read more... )

I talked to Witek and felt instantly better even though every time I went downstairs I burst into tears. I resumed conversation with my mum yesterday and everything seems to be ok with us now. We went to the library and I rented out some graphic novels and a book to help me learn Italian ( Read more... )

France and Italy were wonderful. I came home delayed to a decidedly happy (and slightly drunk) mother. We talked and ate and somehow it all went bad. She said something which hit a nerve and made me feel like a slut-whore and I cried and shouted back at her from the top of the stairs. She came into my room and pushed and pushed at my buttons and I ( Read more... )