*has a panic attack*
Fandom flist people be warned, complete RL flail ahead.
So this quarter, I'm attemtping three full time classes in addition to working full/overtime. Already, that sounds pretty fucking awful, right?
But you haven't heard the classes.
Algebra, Anatomy and Physiology and Sociology.
Algebra is 80% online. Sociology is 100% online. I need all three classes in order to apply to the radiation therapy I have my latest sights set on.
A&P is going just fine. I had the instructor last quarter and my lab partners are still the same. Plus, I have a medical background, right? So that helps immensely. I just understand most of it as we go. That majorly cuts down on my study time.
Sociology is fun. I like it. I read the book, listen to the online lecture and post discussion questions to the online messageboard. Not exactly engaging, but it's doable. It's passable. Except somehow I got a week behind. And I'm spending the weekend getting caught up before my test on Monday.
Oh, except NO, because of the MATH.
I was all well and happy chugging along the first three weeks of the quarter. I was planning to rush through it so I could be done early and only have to worry about the other two classes. But no.
Not only no, but FUCK NO.
Because while the lovely mechanical voice can tell me how to do the problems, it doesn't tell me how NOT to do them. Or correct me. Or answer my questions. The first three weeks, I rushed through, feeling like I was sort of getting it. My first test, I got a B. Okay, but not great, especially when I wanted A's so it looks good on my program transcripts. Took the second test... had to SKIP QUESTIONS.
Did I mention that this class meets once a week on saturday mornings so you can take the paper and pencil test and ask for help. Well, since completely failing two weeks ago, I haven't even attended once, just struggling with it at home and I hate it. Maybe if this was the ONLY class I was taking and I could devote all my free time to it, that wouldn't be so bad.
But I can't. And I need help. And while yes, the campus has reasources and tutors, that's well and good for regular students. But not me who is working full time and taking two other classes.
It doesn't WORK.
I've tried. I've really, really tried. I spent almost four hours today on math. Trying to learn. Trying to understand. I'll get one question, but then the next one is a complete mystery. And I can't tell what I'm, doing wrong or WHY what I'm doing is wrong. I can't learn this way. I just can't.
So now we're 6 weeks into the quarter and I want to withrdawl. At this point, no refund. It's too late. And it's withrdawl with instructor permission. So either my instructor says fine... you suck. See ya. Or she doesn't. And I have to continue to struggle, give myself an ulcer and suffer with whatever grade I get.
There is no win here.
And both scenerios are giving me a stomach ache.
So this quarter, I'm attemtping three full time classes in addition to working full/overtime. Already, that sounds pretty fucking awful, right?
But you haven't heard the classes.
Algebra, Anatomy and Physiology and Sociology.
Algebra is 80% online. Sociology is 100% online. I need all three classes in order to apply to the radiation therapy I have my latest sights set on.
A&P is going just fine. I had the instructor last quarter and my lab partners are still the same. Plus, I have a medical background, right? So that helps immensely. I just understand most of it as we go. That majorly cuts down on my study time.
Sociology is fun. I like it. I read the book, listen to the online lecture and post discussion questions to the online messageboard. Not exactly engaging, but it's doable. It's passable. Except somehow I got a week behind. And I'm spending the weekend getting caught up before my test on Monday.
Oh, except NO, because of the MATH.
I was all well and happy chugging along the first three weeks of the quarter. I was planning to rush through it so I could be done early and only have to worry about the other two classes. But no.
Not only no, but FUCK NO.
Because while the lovely mechanical voice can tell me how to do the problems, it doesn't tell me how NOT to do them. Or correct me. Or answer my questions. The first three weeks, I rushed through, feeling like I was sort of getting it. My first test, I got a B. Okay, but not great, especially when I wanted A's so it looks good on my program transcripts. Took the second test... had to SKIP QUESTIONS.
Did I mention that this class meets once a week on saturday mornings so you can take the paper and pencil test and ask for help. Well, since completely failing two weeks ago, I haven't even attended once, just struggling with it at home and I hate it. Maybe if this was the ONLY class I was taking and I could devote all my free time to it, that wouldn't be so bad.
But I can't. And I need help. And while yes, the campus has reasources and tutors, that's well and good for regular students. But not me who is working full time and taking two other classes.
It doesn't WORK.
I've tried. I've really, really tried. I spent almost four hours today on math. Trying to learn. Trying to understand. I'll get one question, but then the next one is a complete mystery. And I can't tell what I'm, doing wrong or WHY what I'm doing is wrong. I can't learn this way. I just can't.
So now we're 6 weeks into the quarter and I want to withrdawl. At this point, no refund. It's too late. And it's withrdawl with instructor permission. So either my instructor says fine... you suck. See ya. Or she doesn't. And I have to continue to struggle, give myself an ulcer and suffer with whatever grade I get.
There is no win here.
And both scenerios are giving me a stomach ache.