Yeah, I am an idiot. I went to the wrong place this morning for court so I got in trouble for not showing up at the right place the right time. Great fun. So I have to go back the seventeenth. I feel like an idiot. Lol there was alot of funny skanky people w/crazy ass stories though. And yesterday Emily and Becca went to my golf match with me and ( Read more... )

So I had regionals today. yeah, that went really fucking shitty. I can't stand myself and I dont understand how my golf game can go so far down the drain. I am really upset, I cried today. I mean, Why should I go to state, I didn't help the team out w/anything you know, they threw out my score, maybe they all should just go and I can watch because ( Read more... )

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Wow, Bek's entry really got to me because I know all those exact feelings about Davey. I really want to go into all the "memories" and stuff but I can't bring myself to do it right now. Im really trying to block the image of him out of my head. I wish I could do it all the time but you know. I doubt him and Lacy will work out. Someday I'll tell you ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone with Kris and we talked for like 2 hours about everything. He's not picture perfect, like he's done bad things Ive come to find out but I kinda like that, you know I don't have to live up to somebody again. He's in love w/baseball though and I love it because thats what I am used to. He said he wants to see me tomorrow even ( Read more... )

I just got back from riding bikes w/Beth and Bek. And I feel so good right now. I have found my happiness. Like my friends and doing just carefree fun things that remind me of my childhood must just do it for me. I don't know I am so happy and nothing matters, all the drama and all that can be relieved. LIke on the ski trip, just hangin w/my best ( Read more... )

Well friday night at work, I saw this really cute guy come in and Amber said that he was an NEO baseball player. Bingo for me... so she knows him and got him number for me. When I got off I called him and he and his friend came over to my house and watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre w/Allison and Kara. He is deliciously gorgeous but kinda weird. ( Read more... )

I have been thinking alot but I haven't been able to write anything down. My computer is gay. Yesterday was my golf tournament and we didn't even have a team. I played like shit and I dont know whats happening to me, I think I just have alot more on my mind lately and I can't focus. Anyways, Derek came to watch me and something really bad happened ( Read more... )

I am going on my first date w/Derek tonight. I am not even worried because I know that we have a good time together and that we can just talk and there isn't awkward silences. I golfed today and I have been playing really bad lately so i am worried about how I am gonna do in the tournament. Oh well, what happens, happens. So I definitley let Rob ( Read more... )

I am starting this today, I saw Bekkah doing it yesterday and it seemed like a good idea (and she said it helped.) Well Mackenzie and Allison got in a wreck last night and were hit by a semi. Chris was driving and it was on her birthday. All three are ok though. During second hour I defintley left w/Rob and let him drive my car. Lindy saw and I ( Read more... )