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[rinnakins]

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue

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[anonymous]

I ruined my best friendship over a fandom!secret. Sure, the secret was just what pushed it over the edge, but we had it coming. Even though it was supposed to remain anon, the person reposted on their journal, wanking about me to their flist, just making matters worse. When I tried to resolve it, saying that was an even worse move than I did, I ended up crying to them about how I felt like an idiot, because what i did and how I let our friendship get to this state. They agreed to delete it, but I found out that they reposted it shortly after, because they forgot to logout of their account. I've never felt more paranoid/stupid in my life.

[anonymous]

This might sound cliche, but LJ saved me. Before I found LJ, I had torrents of feelings going round, and no way to put them down. I tried traditional journals, but my parents always found them. Even though the person who introduced me to LJ isn't friends with me anymore, I've met to many other people who have helped me with rough times and now I am unashamed to say, they are my friends. We've never met IRL, and a handful of them haven't even seen a picture of me, but it would make my life to be able to meet them. There are so many things that I want to tell them in person, and especially one in particular...because I think I'm in love with her.

[anonymous]

Socially awkward girls flock to me, both IRL and not. They find me and then never ever leave me alone. Why do they think I like them?

[anonymous]

I'm in love with a girl who is a good friend. She's also in love with someone else. I know this, but I can't stop thinking about how much I want her to love me back. From what I understand, this person that she loves doesn't even love her back. I just. Keep thinking about how I could giver her that. I can see something or hear a song that has nothing to do with her and I think of her, anyway, because she's just. That amazing. That nice. That caring. I know that if I told her she would be so accommodating, but then I'd feel like I was taking advantage of her niceness, even though I know she wouldn't feel this way.

The last time I was in love it bit me in the ass and I'm scared that this one will, too, even though I KNOW nothing will come of it. (I probably won't even actually see her.)

[anonymous]

Some quick background: I go to one of the top colleges in the nation. It's as expensive as hell and was super hard to get into. I applied early decision, because I was absolutely in love. But now that I'm here, the only fun I've had is in class. I don't have much of a social life, everyone sits around drinking, and I just feel out of place. The problem comes up with money. It's the second (?) most expensive college in the United States, and I can afford it. I can afford it because my family is very wealthy, though my father and mother are first-generation college-goers.

I've never felt so guilty in my life. It hit me in the middle of class today, when we were discussing economic disparities and the impact that has on levels of educational opportunities. I realized that there are so many talented and brilliant people that deserve to be here more than I do. I'm a high B, low A student-- always have been. Even though the classes have gotten harder, I've kept the same style of grades. I know I'm smart, but I'm not smart enough. I don't

[anonymous]

Anon, never put a limit on yourself.

Grades are hardly a good measure of how intelligent someone is. If you've got in there, then you deserve it as much as the next person.

[anonymous]

Even when not looking at grades, there are so many more brilliant people out there would, I'm sure, would love to be here. And I'm just...

I don't know. It's really silly, isn't it? Feeling guilty for doing my best?

[anonymous]

We all do sometimes, bb.

But I'm sure you're wonderful too!