beltane and ignition

[rio_luna]

So yes, i found it a bit odd that i was fairly determined in my mind to fuck this man i really don't know too well, but determined i was to at least some smooching in. And i was pretty much not ashamed at all, exzcept i was woried i was being awkward and ineept about it

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[rubibees]

Wow, wow, wow!! I can feel the good juju emanating off these posts! When you plug in, you really plug in girl...it has always been so.

I feel you are not done with J, and maybe A...they are opening doors and it might be fun to let that happen a bit more. But yes, please run and play for awhile!

[rio_luna]

I feel that. talking with J & A, the synchronities were astounding. I feel very protective towards Ash in particular. She's very new in the Craft, and has trouble connecting with women. I took her to Goddess grove on Friday and was so pleased to see her making connections with the other women. I see lots of ways for us to connect. She's talking about wire-wrapping stones and I have PILES of those supplies, so I may set up Art Day at my house once the kids leave. She really enjoyed Goddess Grove, and I think she's touched that I'm going out of my way to include her (J's wife and she do NOT get along at all

[rio_luna]

and yes, when J and I sat down for 'the talk" (which included, "So...I hope Jimmy Jack is not going to be showing up at my hosue with a shotgun, right?") I said "if you're asking what I want or where this is going, I don't know. But this is a magickal, alchemical process I'm going thru, and putting on the brakes won't help. So I'd like to just see what happens, and see what evolves."

I feel deep friendship for these folks, and trying to suppress the jucie will only make it bubble up violently elsewhere

[rubibees]

From my perspective in poly land, was J asking if you and yer husband are poly? If you have permission to play and/or engage in other relationships? Thats how I read his words...although as you said a deeper subtext is what you want (and have set up with your partners).

I'm glad these two feel so cozy and you are open to helping them through the challenges they currently face. A poly man whose wife does not like his gf is a huge red flag (again, from my spot in poly-land). Maybe there are good reasons for this, but it goes against the basic premises of poly.

Best to let him get to a more settled place before proceeding. And to spend this time setting up things with your DH so you can hit go when the right person appears. Sounds like I am lecturing, sorry, just in my poly meetup facilitator mode. And I can hear the NRE coursing through you, which is always when we make our worst decisions. ;)