that's rough, buddy
Roxy is sleeping right in front of all my pillows so I decided to stop being a failbot and actually update this thing for the first time in a month. (A MONTH! what is wrong with me?)
big things that happened in my life: I went to a quasi-family reunion in Illinois/Iowa and saw/met my three cousins who I hadn't seen in 15-17 years. I was super worried that weekend would be super awkward but it actually ended up being really fun. We mostly bonded over how much we all hate their dad's wife but that's okay, because she's manipulative and generally awful to be around.
I'm still just working part-time for my mom right now, which has its benefits, mostly being that it gives me enough time to watch a lot of TV on Netflix. Also, it's kind of nice knowing that she owes me a decent sum of money right now so she can't make snide remarks about anything I buy. (she doesn't do this super often but every once in awhile she will blow up at me about money, even though history shows that I'm way better about saving than she is). Also, I take care of the house since she's only here half the time anyway, so it feels slightly less pathetic when I think about being TWENTY FIVE and living at home.
Anyway, I'm still applying for jobs but I never hear back and it's mentally exhausting to even muster up enthusiasm about it. Like, Asheville is one of the worst cities in AMERICA to find a job, and my field is not like, an essential thing, like medical or food service or something. So then I get to thinking I'm in the completely wrong career (since I'm not very good) but I have no idea what else I'd even do, since the only thing I'm good at is trivia. But I don't dwell on this very long because it makes me clammy and shameful and instead I play fetch with Roxy.
Trivia's about the same, except my Thursday trivia has been displaced for the time being. The host quit because the guy who owns the bar it was at is a total dipshit (he was paying all the employees with bad checks, for example) and he's taking a break before finding a new spot, which isn't necessarily a sure thing. I will miss it if it never comes back, but lately, it had gotten really bullshit. there was one team (we called them the Shitty Rape Team since they almost always had shitty rape jokes as their team name) that won a lot (and had won, like, a month straight the last few times I went) and they were just SO petty. They actually argued with the host to make us lose points! It really soured the whole trivia thing for me. But Mondays (my main one) is still good, except a couple of my team members just make no effort to come anymore. TBF, they've had stuff going on, but there's a point where it's just excuses and it makes me sad since I used to see them at least once a week and now I haven't seen my one friend in like, 3 months. But one of my best friends hosts a general trivia night which is 5 minutes from my house on Tuesdays that's been fun. My BFF and I have won a few times, just the two of us, over teams of like, 7-9 adults and it's pretty validating.
Fandom wise, I'm not reading or doing anything anymore. It makes me sad, since I miss fangirling with everyone, but absolutely nothing has caught my eye in that way in months. I mean, there are plenty of things I love and love talking about, but nothing's caught me the way that bandom or Jackass ever did. I did just recently rewatch Avatar: The Last Airbender and I got caught up on Legend of Korra, though, and damn, what magnificent pieces of entertainment, right? I could talk about them for hours, especially Korra, because holy shit, how is a show on NICKELODEON have plot complexities that would not be out of place on AMC or HBO? And while I love this show (and ATLA) and could blabber about them for hours, I don't really have a strong shipping preference? I mean, Sokka/Suki and Zuko/Mai were my favorites from the original and in LOK I don't really have any preferences, yet. And shipping is such a huge part of the fandom I'm used to that I don't feel like I'm doing it right.
I do still love Empires, though. I bought their deluxe preorder package for Garage Hymns since I will do anything to ensure Tom Conrad can eat. I got it today and it's pretty great. There's a pictures and lyrics book and Sean's handwriting is adorably illegible and there'g as a picture with a baggie of weed in it and Tom's wearing a friendship bracelet that I've chosen to believe is mine, even though it probably isn't. Also, the album is fantastic, as expected. I do really miss Ryan, though and I'm sad they never said anything about it, since he was such an important member of the band (he was in it for longer than Max, ffs). I also miss his guns because, goddamn, the boy had arms. But to keep me from being sad, I've decided that Butcher is going to play drums for them for shows since he's in Milwaukee and The Animal Upstairs dissolved and goddammit, let me have this.
ugh, it's almost 5am. Roxy is still in front of my pillows but I should try to go to sleep. I hope you're all doing well, I'm still reading my flist as often as I can. I also have an absolute shitload of embroidery thread to make friendship bracelets, so let me know if anyone wants one! They're not super fancy, but I like making them.
big things that happened in my life: I went to a quasi-family reunion in Illinois/Iowa and saw/met my three cousins who I hadn't seen in 15-17 years. I was super worried that weekend would be super awkward but it actually ended up being really fun. We mostly bonded over how much we all hate their dad's wife but that's okay, because she's manipulative and generally awful to be around.
I'm still just working part-time for my mom right now, which has its benefits, mostly being that it gives me enough time to watch a lot of TV on Netflix. Also, it's kind of nice knowing that she owes me a decent sum of money right now so she can't make snide remarks about anything I buy. (she doesn't do this super often but every once in awhile she will blow up at me about money, even though history shows that I'm way better about saving than she is). Also, I take care of the house since she's only here half the time anyway, so it feels slightly less pathetic when I think about being TWENTY FIVE and living at home.
Anyway, I'm still applying for jobs but I never hear back and it's mentally exhausting to even muster up enthusiasm about it. Like, Asheville is one of the worst cities in AMERICA to find a job, and my field is not like, an essential thing, like medical or food service or something. So then I get to thinking I'm in the completely wrong career (since I'm not very good) but I have no idea what else I'd even do, since the only thing I'm good at is trivia. But I don't dwell on this very long because it makes me clammy and shameful and instead I play fetch with Roxy.
Trivia's about the same, except my Thursday trivia has been displaced for the time being. The host quit because the guy who owns the bar it was at is a total dipshit (he was paying all the employees with bad checks, for example) and he's taking a break before finding a new spot, which isn't necessarily a sure thing. I will miss it if it never comes back, but lately, it had gotten really bullshit. there was one team (we called them the Shitty Rape Team since they almost always had shitty rape jokes as their team name) that won a lot (and had won, like, a month straight the last few times I went) and they were just SO petty. They actually argued with the host to make us lose points! It really soured the whole trivia thing for me. But Mondays (my main one) is still good, except a couple of my team members just make no effort to come anymore. TBF, they've had stuff going on, but there's a point where it's just excuses and it makes me sad since I used to see them at least once a week and now I haven't seen my one friend in like, 3 months. But one of my best friends hosts a general trivia night which is 5 minutes from my house on Tuesdays that's been fun. My BFF and I have won a few times, just the two of us, over teams of like, 7-9 adults and it's pretty validating.
Fandom wise, I'm not reading or doing anything anymore. It makes me sad, since I miss fangirling with everyone, but absolutely nothing has caught my eye in that way in months. I mean, there are plenty of things I love and love talking about, but nothing's caught me the way that bandom or Jackass ever did. I did just recently rewatch Avatar: The Last Airbender and I got caught up on Legend of Korra, though, and damn, what magnificent pieces of entertainment, right? I could talk about them for hours, especially Korra, because holy shit, how is a show on NICKELODEON have plot complexities that would not be out of place on AMC or HBO? And while I love this show (and ATLA) and could blabber about them for hours, I don't really have a strong shipping preference? I mean, Sokka/Suki and Zuko/Mai were my favorites from the original and in LOK I don't really have any preferences, yet. And shipping is such a huge part of the fandom I'm used to that I don't feel like I'm doing it right.
I do still love Empires, though. I bought their deluxe preorder package for Garage Hymns since I will do anything to ensure Tom Conrad can eat. I got it today and it's pretty great. There's a pictures and lyrics book and Sean's handwriting is adorably illegible and there'g as a picture with a baggie of weed in it and Tom's wearing a friendship bracelet that I've chosen to believe is mine, even though it probably isn't. Also, the album is fantastic, as expected. I do really miss Ryan, though and I'm sad they never said anything about it, since he was such an important member of the band (he was in it for longer than Max, ffs). I also miss his guns because, goddamn, the boy had arms. But to keep me from being sad, I've decided that Butcher is going to play drums for them for shows since he's in Milwaukee and The Animal Upstairs dissolved and goddammit, let me have this.
ugh, it's almost 5am. Roxy is still in front of my pillows but I should try to go to sleep. I hope you're all doing well, I'm still reading my flist as often as I can. I also have an absolute shitload of embroidery thread to make friendship bracelets, so let me know if anyone wants one! They're not super fancy, but I like making them.