Loneliness stirs inside ( Read more... )

So I haven't heard from Kyle... no figure. But I did write Kimmie and she replied. I feel aweful because she's lost everything. Not sure how some of the others are doing but Kimmie said everyone is doing alright considering. I'm glad Kimmie and I talked. I actually miss her. She was one of the few who treated alright when I first came to New ( Read more... )

Well today at work fucking sucked. I'm hoping to switch jobs sometime after the holidays because alot of people here have such bad attitudes and really just... grrrrrrr. Anywho, crazy thing... texted kyle(kaos) today. He left some num on his journal giving his celly and I feel weird cause I have talked to him plus alot of other people from New ( Read more... )

Time slips away ( Read more... )

I hate being stuck in alabama. I know I shouldn't but I get so pissed off at my mom for getting cancer and dying. I know in some aspects she couldn't help it and there are chances she could have never smoke and still have gotten it but its also like... I wouldn't have come back here if she had been well. I would still be happy and in Boston. I' ( Read more... )

Okay, yes, it's been awhile. Too much has happened and the last thing I was thinking about was writing in this ( Read more... )

My mom had her first chemo wed. At first she was doing really well. No symptoms or anything but then by friday she was really weak from the steroids wearing off. Today she was pretty sick. That stuff just scares me. I know its part of it and its expected but it still scares me. I don't like to see my mom this sick. I've been so up and down ( Read more... )

Yes, I know again I slacked and let this journal go. Been so busy lately with school. Oh it's soooo sucky that Bush won again. Oh well... gotta deal with it and move on. But I was struck with some really bad news and been doing really bad since I found out. Thought maybe writing in this journal might help me deal with things. I found out Wed ( Read more... )

What can I say really, people are blah most of the time. People like to hide alot. Especially behind words and screens. Its sometimes easier that way to say things..... and if you get mad or if you don't like what that person has to say all ya got to do is be "well I don't know you so stop acting like you know me" That shit really pisses me off ( Read more... )

This was my adaptation of that poem that was put here earlier. This is more like me ( Read more... )