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okay so i figured it would be okay to complain in here since i havent in a while.
there is one thing that is really bothering me. i dont see how you can make fun of me saying that i like my best guy friend. every other word is always "well your boyfriend wants you to" or "your boyfriend thinks you should" i hate it. you know i do not like him, but other people may not know that. and you get mad when i talk to him on the phone for hours on end? wow. so its not ok for me to have a best guy friend, but its okay for you to have 2 girls as some of your really good friends? okay. that really makes sense. and when any other guy even looks at me, and i look back, you get mad, and insist that i like them. but its completely okay if you hook up with someone who, may i add, gives head on command. ha sweeeeeeet. i mean there are times where you are the only person i want to be around, and i think you feel the same way about me, but then theres times where i dont even wanna be involved with you. and then theres the person where no one can boss you around, and you dont take shit from anyone, and you have to always do something stupid because you feel like you have to impress everyone.. but when we get around ONE person he has complete control over you, and you know it. but when hes not there, you play it off like he cant control you at all. why do you have to be so 2 faced with things? I DONT GET IT. yeah you are a funny person, and a lot of people wanna follow in your foot steps, but why do you have to take advantage of that? you have changed a lot in the past year, and we have stayed good friends, but you have lost some people you used to be good friends with, but you wont even say one word to them when they try and talk to you. and then a few weeks later you say "does so and so still think i hate them?" like its no big thing, and you dont mind that you make them feel like shit. when you tell me "you're the only one who really knows me and how i feel" i believe you. seriously. but then there are other times where i dont even know if i know the first thing about you, or whats going through your head. you confuse me.and i dont know if i can take it anymore. im sorry.