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To explain, much of this year revolved around prepping for major examinations, thus explaining my utter lack of a social life. Although a better explanation would be that I simply am no good at having one.
January : Talked to D. like old times, only this time without the haze of being 14 and pretending I was in love. Realized he bugged me. My dog passed away on Chinese New Year.
February : Learnt the bhangra, practised insanely for the overseas drama trip and performance. J. called me "bhangra queen", something I'm sure real bhangra professionals would scoff at. Prepped for school funfair insanely, legitimately cut class to sell tickets to rich doctors and various monied alumni (struck gold!) E. left for Australia.
March : Happily passed exams. Went to South Africa for a week, nearly collapsed from its beauty, decided to tell everyone how much I love the place and the African people. Bought a Lomo LC-A, realized I was shite at taking photos.
April : School performance, pranced around in half a tube top as a goddamn fairy. It was fun.
May : I have no recollection of this month.
June : Watched Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, fell in love with it.
July : Started getting skittish, worried, anxious about impending exams. Little happened other than poor attempts to study. Moved house for the first time in my life.
August : J. left for Massachusetts, I cried at the airport. Her plane got delayed, I laughed but the next day was sad again when she left. Took my preliminary examinations, nearly suffered several fatal heart attacks.
September : Went to my first dinner for the French food & wine society the parental unit is in, nearly suffocated from the excess of amazing food. Had a wonderful break free from worry. Received results, was pleased but then died again inside because of the fear that I could never repeat what I had done. Spent free periods filling in information for college applications.
October : Spent my birthday at my favourite swank Italian restaurant and watching The Motorcycle Diaries with C. Had a really shitty actual birthday. Turned 18 and nothing eventful happened, because nothing ever does. Spoilt a digicam I was given that I had not even used, and which I still have not sent to fix at the faraway customer service centre. Waited in horror for the exams to arrive.
November : Flopped a lot of my papers, worriedly text-messaged W. and E. throughout the whole ordeal, and they sustained me through it all. Decided to adopt my brother's carefree attitude and put whatever I had already accomplished behind me. Ingested inordinate amounts of anxiety medication.
December : Prom, brought three dresses and three pairs of shoes to the suite to ask friends to help me choose, got my hair done for the first time. A. and I decided that school and the people in it were bollocks, and were glad that we no longer had to return to it. Appreciated the fact that I had a group of real, honest friends that would never waver. Friends returned home from overseas, went out every couple of days with different people. Went to Vietnam and was homesick while on holiday for the first time ever. Had a wonderful Christmas party with the gang. Spent New Year's Eve with S., M., N. We kissed N. on the cheek to ring in the new year, and then each other.