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Went into school Friday, and I just knew I wasn't going to make it. Met up with Alanna and spoke to Mr. G, ended up sobbing in his office. He kind of just... stood there? But I guess there really is nothing else he could do. Got him to play Courtney Love's "Never Gonna Be The Same," on Kennedy Live, just because the lyrics fit so well. Went go go outside with Alanna and found Anicia, bawling in the bridge. We hugged her and invited her outside, where we waited until homeroom began. Got to 119 and heard the song, and I just threw myself into Alanna's arms, crying in front of the entire homeroom. I mean... it's all just so hard to comprehend. I heard Anicia calling to me, asking if I would walk her to her homeroom to check in. I walked out to her, but couldn't regain my composure. Neither could she, and Mr. Dunne took us both by the shoulders and led us to the nurse's office, and I got him to go get Alanna. The three of us just sat there, tears streaming down our faces and sobs choking from our throats, while Nurse Jones tried to figure out what to do and Sr. Caroline just stared at us from outside. Lonna had to go get her cd, and Mr. G said he'd agree to take us down to Mr. Schwartz and sit with us for a while. Just to help us get ourselves together. Back at the nurse's, I called my mom and asked if she'd take Anicia, Alanna, and me to Amy's house. Since everyone said there was no way we could stay in school and that we seriously needed adult supervision. A danger. But... once again my mom was convinced that Amy didn't need us there for her at that particular moment, just like freshman year. That she needed some alone time. Bullshit, but we just decided to let Mr. G take us to guidance. Mr. Schwartz just talked with us for a while. Y'know. Asking us how Amy was doing, how her mom had been doing prior to, the like. Put us in some chick's office, and we stayed there for about a half hour? Mr. Schwartz came back, said we didn't have to go to class, but that we could stay in the cafeteria, walk around outside for fresh air, just.. clear our thoughts. So. We basically just sat around for a while. Christine showed up and told us how it happened, how Amy was during the time we spent with her. Joe got out of class as well, and we all made out way outside, told Mr. Halloway that we were going for a walk around the track and that he could talk to Mr. Schwartz about it, and walked over to the football field. Alanna, Anicia, and I climbed up into the stand and just sat there. Had a cigarette, even though I told myself I'd try to not smoke anymore, and lightly dragged a razor across my arm twice. Bled a bit, but really superficial. Just, fuck.. don't tell me how to deal with shit anymore. Heard an announcement over the loudspeaker for Joe and Christine to report to the office, and we figured the administration was looking for us. Walked back inside, and Joe took us to Mr. Conception's office. Where basically he told us that Fr. Norton said he was pissed because he tried to be sympathetic and we abused it, so we either had to go to class or go home. I didn't want to leave anyone alone, so we went to class. Which all sucked. Read "Rats and Rats and Rats for Candy," in English with Alanna, and got a few raised eyebrows. They can all go fuck themselves; the lyrics to that song are genius, only because no one else fucking writes songs like that. And no one has the balls to read it in front of their AP English class. Anyway... Anicia's mom took Lonna, Kitty, and me to Amy's house after school. Waited in her living room for a bit while she got dressed and talked to her sister. Looked at pictures of Amy when she was in grade school and I smiled. Finally Amy came out and brought us to her room and we just sat around and talked for maybe a half hour. Played with her kitten, whom I named Thisbe, but I don't know how much she liked it. It came time to go, and we told her we'd definitely be at the service on Saturday. Got a kiss on the cheeck, and went to Portifino's for some pizza. Walked to the trainstation, saw John and Winter, almost vomitted, and went home.
Friday night Lonna and I went to Depmu Riot's show at some ugly girl's house in Sleepy. Went to Andrew's house first, wished him a happy birthday, and watched them practice. Met JP. And Lee was there, which turned out to be a not so good thing, seeing as how he can be as asshole. Packed up the car and walked two blocks to the party. Waited outside.. because the kids there were basically all gay. As in J-A-Y. Mike Cusack (jesus spelling) showed up, and he helped us bring all the stuff inside. Set up. They played, we danced. Andrew took his shirt off and told me he loved me before they began; too cute. Lonna kicked a couple fat kids, I cursed out some pre-pubescent assholes, y'know the deal. Went back out in the street because, I mean, totally fuck that party scene. Brought all the shit back out, smelled dog shit, and Rob stepped in it. Then Andrew, with his brand new yellow shoes. Then Lonna, just a bit. Then me, even less. Because that's so our luck. So we stood in the street, Andrew and I holding each other, Lonna sitting on Rob's lap while the dick's complained about how cold and pissed they were. Went back to Andrew's house, and Rob's dad gave us a ride home. Good times.
Saturday, we woke up, picked up Eva, and went to the wake. Got there later, missed Amy's speech, and was kind of upset. Met Eric, Ellie, Nadia, Justin, Andrew (the boyfriend)... all a good number of her other friends. And we all just sat around and talked. About anything and everything. It was probably the most comforting sight you could ever witness; just a clump of your not-so-average teenagers, sitting together, talking, and protecting each other without even having to say so. We had to leave after a little while, sadly said goodbye, dropped off Eva, picked up Kitty, and went home. Lonna and I started getting ready; I did her makeup, which came out amazing, I have to say, found her a punk rock sweater, did my makeup, did Kitty's makeup, teased my sister's hair, and headed down to the music hall. Met up with Rob and Andrew, indirectly told off some tons of ugly girls, and watched Rocky Horror. Amazing, as always, but I didn't dance just because I didn't want to be an ass. Went back home, played Human Fly, danced a bit, watched some porn, snuck on to the pirate ship to leave a coconut, and went to bed. Sweet dreams about alarm clocks. This morning, Lonna and I sat in the woods, and then she went home.
Tear that dollar!
First try.
And again.
♥Perfect♥
Steven Tyler
Kissyyy poo
Gay?
Ghostbusters!
The mission.
The End.
Friday night Lonna and I went to Depmu Riot's show at some ugly girl's house in Sleepy. Went to Andrew's house first, wished him a happy birthday, and watched them practice. Met JP. And Lee was there, which turned out to be a not so good thing, seeing as how he can be as asshole. Packed up the car and walked two blocks to the party. Waited outside.. because the kids there were basically all gay. As in J-A-Y. Mike Cusack (jesus spelling) showed up, and he helped us bring all the stuff inside. Set up. They played, we danced. Andrew took his shirt off and told me he loved me before they began; too cute. Lonna kicked a couple fat kids, I cursed out some pre-pubescent assholes, y'know the deal. Went back out in the street because, I mean, totally fuck that party scene. Brought all the shit back out, smelled dog shit, and Rob stepped in it. Then Andrew, with his brand new yellow shoes. Then Lonna, just a bit. Then me, even less. Because that's so our luck. So we stood in the street, Andrew and I holding each other, Lonna sitting on Rob's lap while the dick's complained about how cold and pissed they were. Went back to Andrew's house, and Rob's dad gave us a ride home. Good times.
Saturday, we woke up, picked up Eva, and went to the wake. Got there later, missed Amy's speech, and was kind of upset. Met Eric, Ellie, Nadia, Justin, Andrew (the boyfriend)... all a good number of her other friends. And we all just sat around and talked. About anything and everything. It was probably the most comforting sight you could ever witness; just a clump of your not-so-average teenagers, sitting together, talking, and protecting each other without even having to say so. We had to leave after a little while, sadly said goodbye, dropped off Eva, picked up Kitty, and went home. Lonna and I started getting ready; I did her makeup, which came out amazing, I have to say, found her a punk rock sweater, did my makeup, did Kitty's makeup, teased my sister's hair, and headed down to the music hall. Met up with Rob and Andrew, indirectly told off some tons of ugly girls, and watched Rocky Horror. Amazing, as always, but I didn't dance just because I didn't want to be an ass. Went back home, played Human Fly, danced a bit, watched some porn, snuck on to the pirate ship to leave a coconut, and went to bed. Sweet dreams about alarm clocks. This morning, Lonna and I sat in the woods, and then she went home.
Tear that dollar!
First try.
And again.
♥Perfect♥
Steven Tyler
Kissyyy poo
Gay?
Ghostbusters!
The mission.
The End.