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[risamori]

I need to learn to say no.  Mostly because my lack of ability to say no just because I don't want to do something means that I'm going to be going to see my *lovely* relatives next saturday.  EURGH.  WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF.  WHY DID I NOT JUST SAY NO, I HAVE FINALS ON MONDAY, I REALLY WON'T BE ABLE TO MAKE IT.  I know why, it's because they're

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[asako_michiru]

Well, technically, it's not CLOSE to finals--it IS finals. So you saying no to them is totally in your right. You're not exactly saying no because you hate them, but because you know, not failing tends to be a priority in your life. Plus, it's not just you not making an effort to talk to them--they haven't been making much of one either most of the semester, except on occasion, and what's good for them isn't always for you

[risamori]

XD A lot of this is me whining. I mean, it's kind of late to back out now, I told them I would be free for a little while on Saturday ( I even emphasized the 'little while' part, since I have the whole exam-on-monday thing). And I doubt I'll be there more than two hours anyways. Realistically, two hours....I mean, I spend that much time playing flash games online while procrastinating. XDDD It's not logically a huge deal.

I just....really wish I had no connection to these people, basically. >.> And that I could feel okay about refusing them those two hours. Quite frankly, the flash games do me far more good than they do. But no, that would be rude, which means that while I could do it if necessary it's not something I'd feel good about doing. I get mad at my own need to be perfect for people sometimes. :( It's stupid, and I know it, but I can't seem to shake it--too much anxiety to deal with. That's all.

[asako_michiru]

Okay. I wasn't sure how long you were going to be there, hence the offer. :3 I get it, utterly and completely; family is a complicated thing, Manners are probably sent from Satan to make us miserable. Yeah. XD