Well.
I feel like i need to say something but i dont know exactly what.
It was a wonderful 387 days with Kendall. I dont regret one of them.
We are still going to be friends. And yes...we are still going on the ski trip.
It may be awkward(sp) but maybe it will be a good experience. To just go as friends and just talkI still dont know what to think ( Read more... )

It is officially over. 12-10-04.

The worst-best day of my life.

It was a good day school wise and such.

But we half-mutually broke up. To date around. I will die when i see him with another girl. And we both know that. : [

Who will ever go out with me now. No one...that's who. I will live by myself with tons of cats and never go out of the house.

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i wish i had one person i could talk to that was exactly like me and in the same prediciment as me.
just so we could talk it through and maybe get ideas from one another.

WAIT!!

i do know that person. my silly boyfriend. Why cant he just talk to me?

"i never hold grudges..."

hmmm. well this non-grudge has gone on toooooo loooooooong ( Read more... )

Things are better.
Not perfect.
But better.
ex-oh.

dont get jealous. dont get jealous. dont get jealous.

guh. i cant help it! just come play with me.

ha. no cancer. no tumor.
growth plate malfuntion. nothing to lose sleep over.
:]
yea. we still dont hang out. its been 5 days.
too long of a break for me. i want to see him.
N O W
gawd. damn-it.
grr. now im frustrated. why cant things go back to normal.
please?
<3

a bone tumor.  s h u t - u p !

please God. say it isnt true. i want my kendall to be safe and healthy forever please. i will do anything. and everything. just tell me. give me the cancer.

just dont let it be there.  :[

tomorrow we will find out for sure. hopefully.

oh. geez-uhs. it has been such a rollercoaster of emotions for me in just the past three or four days.

hopefullyhopefullyhopefully  things will slowly but surely [most definitely positively] work themselves out.  i could never be with anyone but Kendall. no matter how much people laugh or look down on that. im fo serious. :] <3 i will marry this ( Read more... )

its over. at least for a while.

someone come kill me now. :'(

its my fault again. whats new.