Oops I did it again.

You were laying on the carpet ( Read more... )

Last night was a good one and a bad one all at once. Good points include seeing almost all of my good friends for the first time in months , and being able to congratulate Ricky on his marriage. Met up with everyone at a bar in Torrance, had a few drinks and got a chance to catch up with my buds. Things dried up a little so we all decided to hop to ( Read more... )

Everything
I touch
Turns from gold
to dust.

My perfect day is hot or maybe cold, still but possibly with a breeze or even maybe a stiff gale ... i'm at the beach, or the mountains, or in the city, or in a field surrounded by grass or crops or cows ... it's here or there or maybe somewhere in between ... a radio is playing tunes of yesterday and tommorrow with today's greatest hits, or maybe ( Read more... )

I am ( Read more... )

What a difference a few days and a total headcheck make.Manic Depression is a fucking roller coaster, but its more so now that I have something (and someone) to lose. A couple battles fought and won, reconciliation of loved ones, and a slap or two in the face did the trick. And now, I couldnt be happier. Id like to take this opportunity to thank ( Read more... )

FUCK you, you insecure, weak, and selfish fucking bastard. If you werent me, Id wish you were dead. When you will understand that every time you try to hurt yourself you will only hurt everyone around you, the people you claim you live for? Start praying that you havent destroyed the thing you cherish more than you ever thought possible. Grow up ( Read more... )

Tonight we'll see if I am capable of being anything other than alone. This mix of hope and terror is unlike anything I've ever known or felt before. Five seconds left ... clip the right wire or my world goes up in flames...