So Long, Good Bye
RyoDa Malaysian Writer Orgy
Title: So Long, Good Bye
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo / Ueda Tatsuya (RyoDa)
Genre: Angst? Maybe~
Rating: G
Summary: Ueda finally decided to call everything off
*****
Ueda watched as the clock ticking on the wall; 2AM, while occasionally threw a glance at the front door, expecting a certain someone to walk in through it. Then he sighed heavily, slumped himself deeper into the couch knowing that certain someone won’t be back sooner, at least not in couple hours.
Ueda stirred in his sleep when he heard a click on the door, grumpily rubbed his sleepy eyes and peeked through the couch. There was a figure standing at the front door, slowly making his way into the house but stopped on his track when he saw Ueda on the couch, staring at him with a clearly unsatisfied look on his face.
“It’s almost 4 in the morning. Just where the hell were you, Ryo?” Ueda’s voice was sharp and stern, glaring at him with his big brown eyes and Ryo snorted annoyingly.
“I can go anywhere I want. I can go back home at anytime I want” he ignored the latter, walking straight to their shared room and Ueda didn’t waste anymore time, quickly stood up and followed a half-drunk Ryo from behind.
“But you should at least call me; tell me where you were going, that you’ll be late or anything, just anything! So, I don’t have to deadly worry about you!” Ueda yelled and Ryo turned around to face him.
“Who told you to worry about me? Don’t act like you’re my obedient wife or something!” Ryo yelled back before threw his body to the bed, closed his eyes while covered his head with the pillow, missed to notice the tears that started to well in Ueda’s eyes.
Things used to be great between us before. But now we can't even relate anything between us. How come this happens? Everyday is a struggle for me because I knew something is not right and I want to make everything right for us again. But you do nothing but just want to fight. Ryo, what’s happening to you? What’s happening to us? What’s happening to our relationship? Can’t you just tell me, Ryo?
*****
“Hey Yamashita-kun, can I talk to you for a moment?” Ueda waited nervously at where he stood when two pair of eyes was giving him a confused look. “In private?” Ueda bit his lower lip hard.
“Oh, o--okay” Shige stumbled on his words a bit, moving awkwardly to the back. “So…I’ll see you in our room later okay” Yamapi nodded and Shige disappeared around the corner.
“So you want to talk to me” Yamapi was the one who approached Ueda, when he noticed Ueda won’t make any effort to make any move. Ueda was fidgeting, playing with the hem of his shirt.
“It’s about Ryo” Ueda looked up and Yamapi nodded, leaning his back against the wall while waiting for Ueda to continue to talk.
“He came home at 4 last night. And he didn’t want to talk to me when I ask”
“He wasn’t with us last night” Yamapi didn’t wait for Ueda to ask him that, he knew exactly what Ueda was going to ask him. This wasn’t their first time talking about Ryo. Ueda had been looking for him for the past 9 months when he had something suspicious about Ryo.
“Really? I thought he was with you” Ueda’s voice was so low, almost cracked and Yamapi stood straight on his foot, facing the pretty boy in front of him who was almost at the edge of crying.
“Ueda, what are you doing?”
“I’m trying to fix this. I’m trying to make everything right for me and Ryo again” tears started to run down on Ueda’s smooth cheeks and Yamapi had to close his eyes.
“Is it worth it? Try to think about your own self for a moment. I’m not saying this to separate both of you. I’ve known you for ages now and Ryo is my best friend after all. But it won’t work; nothing will work when you’re the only one who wants this to work”
Nothing I do ever pleases you which always make me wonder how you'd like that. What should I say? You've made it this way, Ryo! And I'm supposed to fix this; I still want to fix this. Because I still want to be with you, I still want to love you, and I don’t want this relationship to end just when we’ve been gone through all the trouble to be here today.
*****
Ueda stood in front of the door, waiting patiently for Ryo’s return. It was almost 3 in the morning now but Ueda didn’t feel sleepy at all. He waited, knew that Ryo will be home in any minute. He collected all his courage; eyes were full with determination as he finally decided to fix everything tonight. For the sake of his love for Ryo, he needed to do this.
Ryo finally back, showed up at the front door with eyes half-opened, unbalanced movement as Ueda eyed his every step carefully. Ryo lifted up his head, made an eye contact with Ueda when he noticed Ueda’s presence in front of the door and he raised his eyebrow.
“We need to talk” Ryo let out a mocking laugh.
“No, we’re not. I’m going to sleep” he pushed Ueda to the side but Ueda acted faster as he grabbed Ryo’s left arm and gripped it tight.
“What the hell?!!” Ryo tried to get free from Ueda’s grip but Ueda was strong as he tightened his hold. Ryo was furious now.
“Let me go now or else...”
“Or else what Nishikido?” Ryo jolted up, staring at Ueda’s cold expression with a slightly opened mouth. And the way Ueda said his name, like Ryo was nothing to him. And it was Nishikido, not Ryo this time.
“Tats--”
“It’s Ueda to you now” Ueda said, slowly let go of Ryo’s arm and stepped back. “We’re over now. Everything between us, it’s all over now. I was wrong when I thought that I was strong enough to hold on our insecure love. I thought I can fix everything that starting to drift apart between us. I thought that if I continue to believe in our love, continue to have faith in you, we’ll go back to where we started before” Ueda exhaled a deep breath. Ryo was gaping wildly.
“But it was so hard when I have to do all that alone. It was meaningless when you continuously staying away from me, fighting with me, and ignoring my presence around you. That’s when I realized that we’re not meant for each other. We’re just someone that God wanted us to meet before we found the right one. I have no regret at all, honestly. And I did love you with all my heart. But it’s time for both of us to separate and find our own happiness” Ueda turned around, grabbed his luggage that he put behind the door and walked out of the house and from Ryo’s life, forever.
It's finally over; we're finally through everything. And it's all because of you, Ryo. You made me do this. And I don't even know why I tried to fix this in this first place; this relationship, this love, when you never cared! You never ever cared! It’s so tiring, Ryo. When I think back about everything that had happened in the past 9 months, I don't think that's fair for me to hold onto you till now when all you ever wanted is to get rid of me. So, I don’t care anymore. I don’t care about anything anymore. Sayounara, Nishikido Ryo.
~OWARI~
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Please don’t kill me!! *puppy eyes* I know the ending is somehow making you upset, but I purposely wrote it that way (^_^) I’ve been writing fluffy stories all this while so I thought, it would be nice if I can write angst sometimes. As usual, comments are loved <3
Title: So Long, Good Bye
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo / Ueda Tatsuya (RyoDa)
Genre: Angst? Maybe~
Rating: G
Summary: Ueda finally decided to call everything off
*****
Ueda watched as the clock ticking on the wall; 2AM, while occasionally threw a glance at the front door, expecting a certain someone to walk in through it. Then he sighed heavily, slumped himself deeper into the couch knowing that certain someone won’t be back sooner, at least not in couple hours.
Ueda stirred in his sleep when he heard a click on the door, grumpily rubbed his sleepy eyes and peeked through the couch. There was a figure standing at the front door, slowly making his way into the house but stopped on his track when he saw Ueda on the couch, staring at him with a clearly unsatisfied look on his face.
“It’s almost 4 in the morning. Just where the hell were you, Ryo?” Ueda’s voice was sharp and stern, glaring at him with his big brown eyes and Ryo snorted annoyingly.
“I can go anywhere I want. I can go back home at anytime I want” he ignored the latter, walking straight to their shared room and Ueda didn’t waste anymore time, quickly stood up and followed a half-drunk Ryo from behind.
“But you should at least call me; tell me where you were going, that you’ll be late or anything, just anything! So, I don’t have to deadly worry about you!” Ueda yelled and Ryo turned around to face him.
“Who told you to worry about me? Don’t act like you’re my obedient wife or something!” Ryo yelled back before threw his body to the bed, closed his eyes while covered his head with the pillow, missed to notice the tears that started to well in Ueda’s eyes.
Things used to be great between us before. But now we can't even relate anything between us. How come this happens? Everyday is a struggle for me because I knew something is not right and I want to make everything right for us again. But you do nothing but just want to fight. Ryo, what’s happening to you? What’s happening to us? What’s happening to our relationship? Can’t you just tell me, Ryo?
*****
“Hey Yamashita-kun, can I talk to you for a moment?” Ueda waited nervously at where he stood when two pair of eyes was giving him a confused look. “In private?” Ueda bit his lower lip hard.
“Oh, o--okay” Shige stumbled on his words a bit, moving awkwardly to the back. “So…I’ll see you in our room later okay” Yamapi nodded and Shige disappeared around the corner.
“So you want to talk to me” Yamapi was the one who approached Ueda, when he noticed Ueda won’t make any effort to make any move. Ueda was fidgeting, playing with the hem of his shirt.
“It’s about Ryo” Ueda looked up and Yamapi nodded, leaning his back against the wall while waiting for Ueda to continue to talk.
“He came home at 4 last night. And he didn’t want to talk to me when I ask”
“He wasn’t with us last night” Yamapi didn’t wait for Ueda to ask him that, he knew exactly what Ueda was going to ask him. This wasn’t their first time talking about Ryo. Ueda had been looking for him for the past 9 months when he had something suspicious about Ryo.
“Really? I thought he was with you” Ueda’s voice was so low, almost cracked and Yamapi stood straight on his foot, facing the pretty boy in front of him who was almost at the edge of crying.
“Ueda, what are you doing?”
“I’m trying to fix this. I’m trying to make everything right for me and Ryo again” tears started to run down on Ueda’s smooth cheeks and Yamapi had to close his eyes.
“Is it worth it? Try to think about your own self for a moment. I’m not saying this to separate both of you. I’ve known you for ages now and Ryo is my best friend after all. But it won’t work; nothing will work when you’re the only one who wants this to work”
Nothing I do ever pleases you which always make me wonder how you'd like that. What should I say? You've made it this way, Ryo! And I'm supposed to fix this; I still want to fix this. Because I still want to be with you, I still want to love you, and I don’t want this relationship to end just when we’ve been gone through all the trouble to be here today.
*****
Ueda stood in front of the door, waiting patiently for Ryo’s return. It was almost 3 in the morning now but Ueda didn’t feel sleepy at all. He waited, knew that Ryo will be home in any minute. He collected all his courage; eyes were full with determination as he finally decided to fix everything tonight. For the sake of his love for Ryo, he needed to do this.
Ryo finally back, showed up at the front door with eyes half-opened, unbalanced movement as Ueda eyed his every step carefully. Ryo lifted up his head, made an eye contact with Ueda when he noticed Ueda’s presence in front of the door and he raised his eyebrow.
“We need to talk” Ryo let out a mocking laugh.
“No, we’re not. I’m going to sleep” he pushed Ueda to the side but Ueda acted faster as he grabbed Ryo’s left arm and gripped it tight.
“What the hell?!!” Ryo tried to get free from Ueda’s grip but Ueda was strong as he tightened his hold. Ryo was furious now.
“Let me go now or else...”
“Or else what Nishikido?” Ryo jolted up, staring at Ueda’s cold expression with a slightly opened mouth. And the way Ueda said his name, like Ryo was nothing to him. And it was Nishikido, not Ryo this time.
“Tats--”
“It’s Ueda to you now” Ueda said, slowly let go of Ryo’s arm and stepped back. “We’re over now. Everything between us, it’s all over now. I was wrong when I thought that I was strong enough to hold on our insecure love. I thought I can fix everything that starting to drift apart between us. I thought that if I continue to believe in our love, continue to have faith in you, we’ll go back to where we started before” Ueda exhaled a deep breath. Ryo was gaping wildly.
“But it was so hard when I have to do all that alone. It was meaningless when you continuously staying away from me, fighting with me, and ignoring my presence around you. That’s when I realized that we’re not meant for each other. We’re just someone that God wanted us to meet before we found the right one. I have no regret at all, honestly. And I did love you with all my heart. But it’s time for both of us to separate and find our own happiness” Ueda turned around, grabbed his luggage that he put behind the door and walked out of the house and from Ryo’s life, forever.
It's finally over; we're finally through everything. And it's all because of you, Ryo. You made me do this. And I don't even know why I tried to fix this in this first place; this relationship, this love, when you never cared! You never ever cared! It’s so tiring, Ryo. When I think back about everything that had happened in the past 9 months, I don't think that's fair for me to hold onto you till now when all you ever wanted is to get rid of me. So, I don’t care anymore. I don’t care about anything anymore. Sayounara, Nishikido Ryo.
~OWARI~
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Please don’t kill me!! *puppy eyes* I know the ending is somehow making you upset, but I purposely wrote it that way (^_^) I’ve been writing fluffy stories all this while so I thought, it would be nice if I can write angst sometimes. As usual, comments are loved <3