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ritual605

when why isn't what or who or how

Aug 03, 2007 03:17

I just went on about an hour's voyage of nostaglia thanks to the internet. I ended up finding a bunch of Myspace pages of people I used to hang out with back in high school and later times. I find that I really miss my old friends. I guess that's what happens when you're a reclusive fuckhead who has a phobia of intiating contact with most people ( Read more... )

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axonfuel August 3 2007, 11:00:13 UTC

Does it say something about me that I write the most when I'm in the most vulnerable moods?

Don't know, but if you find out tell me. I do the same thing.

ryuumasken August 3 2007, 11:06:44 UTC

I understand what you mean about knowing tons of people but then gradually knowing nobody. It just happened to me over the past year when my group of friends essentially disbanded due to death and pregnacies.

I also get what you mean about having a phobia of making initial contact.

I'm actually somewhat paranoid about posting this comment. XD

ritual605 August 4 2007, 06:34:55 UTC

I always welcome comments, good sir!

motorola_otaku August 3 2007, 14:41:43 UTC

I don't really miss any of my back-in-the-day friends, truth be told. In hindsight, most of them were dicks or fairweather friends. I've made better friends since then, so good riddance.

As far as "the mood to write" goes, I only post in LJ when I'm at the end of my rope, and I'm okay with that. But then, I've never been really motivated to write anything creatively just for the hell of it, like you. If I lost the motivation to do that, I'd probably want it back too.

kazara August 3 2007, 20:00:21 UTC

When I go on random MySpace searches, I find out that a lot of my friends have completely changed their appearances, personalities, or even sexual orientations so drastically that I don't know if I even want to be in contact with them. XD

As for friends go, I had a lot of fairweather friends and all of that, but my real fear of talking to them as that we simply won't be able to connect anymore. I mean, with the fact that we haven't talked in years...we probably have to be so different now, we won't even find a way to connect. I've watched that happen with some of my IRL friends before my eyes, and it's kind of scary.

I also only write on Livejournal when I'm vulnerable or just simply have something that I reeeeeeally need to write.

And I also have to say that Otakon really turned my year around, since before that my year was basically incredibly shitty. You're a big thanks to making Otakon so awesome. <3

ritual605 August 4 2007, 06:35:50 UTC

Yeah, the connection thing is there. I don't know what I would talk about with some of these people anymore...

cmetom August 4 2007, 20:46:06 UTC

Shoplifters and Idiots don't know what Venn diagrams are, Barry!

Congrats on the anniversary - Amy sounds wonderful :)
Dressing up all fancy-like is really fun, A and I do it as often as we can manage (not very often, but still! hehe)

I had a great time at Otakon this year, thanks to you and the rest of the wonder-crew.

I'm kinda surprised to hear you're so unsure of yourself in many ways, since I see you as very together and strong and able to deal with the tough breaks you have had dished up to you this last . Though perhaps I shouldn't be so surprised - I'm constantly unsure of myself, but am learning every day that other people think otherwise of me. So in case you aren't told this enough... SURPRISE! YOU'RE AWESOME! :)