Alright I am finally going to keep up with this journal. So today was the busiest day in the world. It all started about three in the morning when I went to bed, I couldn’t get any sleep so I kept tossing and turning and like around five I got up to change cause it was to freakin hot to wear sweats. So I get back in bed and around six it gets ( Read more... )

Time heals, just let time go by and you won’t feel as bad. That’s bull. My grandmother died. Now I have no one to run to when shit starts going bad. Its fucken selfish of me to say that she wasn’t suppose to die yet simply because I wasn’t ready to handle it. But who cares I want to be selfish right now; I want to say that it isn’t fair, she should ( Read more... )

So my grandmother is dying. Just like that. One day she is dancing at my cousin’s baptism having a drink cracking jokes about everyone, because she can, and the next month she is lying in the intensive care unit in the hospital. She is the strongest women I know, so this puts doubts in my mind about my survival. If she can't survive how the fuck am ( Read more... )

today i was fortunate enough to have time to engage in some interesting conversations with old friends from high school. well technically they are not old friends because we never really drifted . then again who really knows if they are my friends, i mean i consider them my friends but do they consider me a friend? now i don't really know, seeing ( Read more... )