to anyone who replied to my thing before... i thank you. individual comments will come later. when i clear my head.

Today the weather was nicer and it made me smile. And songs reminded me of better times. I guess today was a better day. That is all.

I miss many of you.

I came to the realization that I will never be a part of camp again. And I don't want to be. Good riddance, and everybody who still believes in it -- you don't know shit. Oh wait a minute -- you probably wasn't treated like a piece of shit like I was. Well, I guess there is nothing left for me. No goodbyes, no tears, no appreciation, and most of ( Read more... )

In line I long to be
Inside your company
Good things are coming
I know they always have
In time, a far away place that we can go
I know we will someday
On our own, until then I will lay inside
Rest on a rising tide
Don’t be so selfless
I’ll wait on the same lines as you
Can’t be so helpless
Good things are coming our way
Good things are coming, I’ ( Read more... )

So last night we darling Carrie's 19th birthday, kind of scary she's already 19. I went out to dinner with her family, but the dinner made me sick. And right now I'm already dying- I have a horrible cough and I'm all stuffed up, it's this stupid fucking weather and I'm smoking too much. We went to Image & Bogarts and both places were pretty fucking ( Read more... )

I have no concept of money. In one day I spent over $100 and I didn't even realize it. There goes the paycheck I was so looking forward to. I need to be more careful with my money. I need to stop going to shitty bars where I have to let disgusting drunk guys buy me beers and ask like it'll be the end of their world if I don't give them my number. ( Read more... )

I'm not falling for someone, but I am opening up. Which in my head is a big step. It's pleasant, it's cute, but nothing serious. I still haven't forgotten another.

I'm seriously looking forward to Bamboozle with Cren and hopefully going to DC soon with Megg. And oh yeah, there have been predictions for a crazy weekend.

i am so very boring. i hate this snow, i hate this weather, i hate new york. p.s. i watched the notebook the other day and i cried like a bitch.

did i mention that i'm boring?

Not like this is shocking me or anything -- so I drank a lot this weekend and made a fool out of myself. Even worse, I give into my temptations just to get a quick fix on a feeling I can't put a price on, duplicate, imitate, or get from any other thing. I can't be happy. I can't be satisfied without it. I'm too neurotic to even deal with my own ( Read more... )

Yeah so, I wanted to update but my account keeps going in an out of read-only mode so I've had to wait till I had some time in school. My fairfield weekend with Alyssa was spectactular, except for Domino's not answering our phone calls. I duno maybe it was a subliminal message we should cut back on the food. We saw many interesting people on our ( Read more... )

fabulous weekend with carenya and mag, actually mag had an extended visit. she has slept over my house 4 times over the break. but since we're going to be roommates next year, it is a good thing we never got sick of each other. we watched Dumb & Dumber drunk while eating 4 packages of annie's easy mac mixed together. good times ( Read more... )