maybe it was all a self-fulfilling prophecy, i shouldn't do that... but while i was feeling very good for several days there, i suddenly feel very dark ( Read more... )

good god, what can i say ( Read more... )

i will write more because it is so late, but my what a bizarre and heart wrenching meeting with dr. drew. what an amazing man.


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jason gave me lots of hugs ( Read more... )

dr. drew to the rescue!

by a sheer random wasting-of-time miracle, i found out that dr. drew is going to be at USF today. i've bought tickets for jason and myself. i am so excited to see him and i hope i can get a hug from him. LOL!

drew is going back to school full time. jason does not like this. that is the least of my worries at this point. i am being sponsored by a couple of people to make this happen until i "get back on my feet". anyone else willing to do so, please let me know, i will pay you back. it's only $90/week, but jason won't pay for it ( Read more... )

i feel a touch better
a girlfriend has finally gotten her own place
and a friend out of state said i have a place to stay
should i feel the need to flee

called and left a message for shrink about upping my dosage

just having options feels nice...i'm not stuck

i called 211 (help line) .. long time, 13 years or so, since i did that ( Read more... )

i never do these stupid things, and i don't think this one could have come up more inaccurately.

Your result for The Animal Archetype Test...
The Squirrel


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stayed at my mom's for a week, drew stayed out of school the whole week and i got her to 1 out of 2 dance classes... i slept through 2 physical therapy appointments and now i can't imagine calling and trying to go back...
and tomorrow is monday again
can't.function.
scared.