just b/c Satu said she was waiting for an entry......

[rizzyr]

I so need to actually start writing down everything that's going on here. It might be theraputic. But that would require effort. And I don't have a lot of that lately. Ugh

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[kobean]

*big big hugs*

aw babe, i hope things get better for you. i'm here if you ever need a break from everything or something. :)

[rizzyr]

Aww, Trishaaaaaaaa! *hugs back* I loves ya gurl! <3 Thanks. Seriously.

[betty_blinx]

Going to see someone does not make you a freak

[rizzyr]

I knooooow, but IDK I was like raised not to talk about emotions and stuff so I feel like a freak. Stupid I know. *sigh*

[acrayonsmile]

*hugs and kisses

Don't be afraid of dying, it's no way to live<-it's a cliche, I know, but it's a good one. Other than that, I'm always (and I do mean practically always) online if you need me. And, well, *hug*

[rizzyr]

*hugs and kisses back*

I know it's not. I'm doing a bit better, but I usually make my friends come over and stay with me til like 2 or 3 am. It's going to be hard going back to work next week at 7 am.

Thanks darling! <333

[shandoras]

God, Stephers. Sleeping problems are the biggest bitch ever. You do whatever you need, and no one is a freak for trying to sort things out, damnit. I think it's wise more than anything to do something now than to grit your teeth and carry everything on your shoulders, capiche, my dear, dear Stephers?

And srsly. "Just because Satu said". There are other people here who really want to know, too. But I'm glad I said it then, now I can go ocean-diving to find that bloody doctor I sent for you. That's just low of him to STILL not have arrived. Men. Next time I'll send the cutest female doctor/nurse I can find, yeah? Maybe they'll fare better.

[rizzyr]

Capiche. :p

Haha, but YOU were the one that said you were waiting. So there. OMG that doctor!!! HATE HIM! (Obviously Vida is shocked at the attitude of the doctor as well, check out the icon!) Yes, maybe the female will work better.LOL

[ketene]

Talking to someone definitely does not make you a freak, don't think like that. Freaks are the people who DON'T get help and wind up going nuts and being crazy and all that, so don't worry. It's a very brave and responsible thing to do and it will probably help.

I don't have the same problem as you but I've had insomnia a lot in my life, so I understand not being able to sleep. Try meditating next time you go to bed - lay as still as you can, and concentrate on your breathing, just think about your breathing and nothing else, count your breaths in and out, and relax. Try to feel your whole body and feel your pulse going once you're still enough, and bam! Soon you'll be asleep, you'll just be so still and so relaxed and not thinking about anything else.

♥♥

[rizzyr]

See, I've tried to relax but when it's quiet I freak out even more. The silence fucks me up.

I've been doing a bit better though. Just a bit. Maybe finally just telling my best friends about it helped??

[ketene]

Have you ever tried listening to music or anything? Or a metronome?

[rizzyr]

What's a metronome? LOL But yah I listen to music and keep the tv on all night. But last night was okay cos I had people spend the night....although I was the last one to fall aleep. LOL