Is this position familiar, darling? / All monkeys do what they see.

[rm_renfield]

So I checked my voicemail on Christmas. I'd gotten a call from HB on Christmas Eve, I discovered. He was telling me that the thing he had been pushing me to do with him in January -- the thing I'd already rearranged my schedule to do, mind -- he was now reconsidering. Which should not have come as a shock to me -- I should have known that he never

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[pointnopoint]

You are not crazy. I tend to obsess about people too, but really, I think once someone fabulous enters your life, all of this contemplation about Scott will cease. You can hit me for saying that, but I truly think that.

I am also going senile, perhaps you can email me and remind me which one HB is? Sometimes I have trouble remembering whose pseudonym goes with whom.

Also, did you get my Christmas card?

[jchance]

No one and nothing is a complete waste unless you choose not to learn anything. Even my worst times, I tend to wish they were _shorter_ rather than that they never happened.

[perspicacious]

You're decidedly not crazy for wanting closure. Which is I suspect the real impetus behind wanting to contact him again - not that it excludes the desire to salvage something, which also makes sense (who wouldn't want to feel like the time wasn't wasted?). The real question, would contacting him again actually provide closure or a sense that the time wasn't wasted? I would guess that it wouldn't really do either. Which sucks a lot.

On another, cheerier note, there are PLENTY of bridges you've kept - I mean, I haven't lived in the same city as you in the past ten (is that right? I think so!) years! An ENTIRE DECADE.

Speaking of which, I miss the hell out of you.