thought on a friday afternoon

[roamingdude82]

so instead of doing my work this afternoon, which was going to be a fun writing session to get my first chapter well underway, i decided to um... do not so much. i looked around for some jobs, filled out some applications, got bored, browsed my music - the usual way to kill time. and of course i thought about the usual things that i don't write

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[hokuopio]

i think you'[re expecting too much form yourself. instead of dwelling on things that could be better about you, learn from the things you are proudof and just keep building on that. i mean, when you were 7, did you really think that some day you'd be living in Uganda teaching renewable resource management? no, you probably thought you'd be an astronaut. so look how much more you know about the world and the people who live in it since you were 7. or since you were 18. or 20. you are a person who is--obviously--not content to sit on his ass and let the world go by. you care so much about the world and you actually go out and do something about it. maybe you're not the figurehead for a global mobilzation against pollution/corruption/war, but that doesn't mean that you have done and have yet to do will have no effect. you are 1 person in 7 billion (or whatever the hell we're up to now), but when another 1 person in 7 billion feels like they're not helping, and then another, and then another, it turns out that they really are, they just

[roamingdude82]

but i am a product of immediate gratification!!! ahhhh!!! thank you for your perspective, i don't always get in those slumps, but i do every now and again. it just feels weird to know that there is nothing in my life, or in most Westerners lives, to warrant feeling bad about but not being able to do anything about it. that's kind of stupid, i'm upset at myself for being not being upset. like i can go through life and not really recognise how good things are until they are missing. and i try so hard to appreciate everything, and i do sometimes, but the majority of the time i just take things for granted until i sit down one afternoon and try to put my life in perspective. like think about when you are sick, or have a stuffy nose, and you can't really remember what it is like to just be able to breathe normally without conscience thought like most other people can. but not you, because you have an ailment that prevents you from doing things so easily. then you swear that you will appreciate it so much more when it just goes away

[hokuopio]

i think everyone feels that way (to some extent) sometimes. it would inhuman(e) not to. but i think you should take comfort in knowing what you have and are currently doing.

and is it really "foregranted"? i mean, it makes sense, but is that another way to spell it?

[roamingdude82]

i don't know... i think i made it up. i am having trouble finding anything on dictionary.com to explain myself. so i guess i am in the wrong... hm...