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robingoh

Lost and Found... and Lost Again

Jul 17, 2007 03:03

I can't sleep. There was a note of finality in our messages that seemed to signal that this is the end of the road. So I toss and turn in bed, waiting for the relief that's supposed to set in, and finding only emptiness, loneliness and despair ( Read more... )

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hansel25 July 16 2007, 19:31:03 UTC

When Forster was writing _Maurice_, he claimed that he couldn't envision a happy ending in the then-England. The only way was for Maurice and Alec to escape into the woods. The fairy tale woods where Little Red Riding Hood meets the wolf and Snow White is encased in a glass coffin. Even then, the ending of _Maurice_ isn't satisfactory to Forster because the World War later made it impossible for the couple to hide in the woods.

Perhaps then, there is no such thing as a happy ending, only an ending that we must make happy with. I'm sure the road you're on has wild daffodils on its side. Rest for a while.

scorpiojerm July 17 2007, 03:53:49 UTC

having loosened up the flood-gates and come face to face again with pain and insecurity, i keep wondering ... why is this overwhelming need to be in love so strong that it can darken each day and make the 864000 secconds crawl by? does it really make us complete thus giving us greater strength to face the days and nites?

I look at all that I've done and there is a hollowness to it at times when i come home to solitude and the emptiness of my home

so i've admitted my need for love and i say "yes" to the fact that it gives me strength. i yearn for the companionship of another that i can connect with, that can i fight and grow with, that i can learn from, that i can feel alive with and that i can feel contentment with.

i'm not scared to go out and get hit by it and this time .... give it my all

you asked if i believed in happy endings and i replied ... "u know i still don't believe in forever and ever ... even after getting back a little bit of hope"years ago u taught me that its the moments ... whether long or short that matter ( ... )

runecircle July 17 2007, 05:04:02 UTC

i dunno how to advise you sweetie. hugggg; kisss
with every ending, there has to be a beginning again. i can only suggest that you stay present, and accept whatever it is right now. i think true happiness isn't the kind of sweetness that comes once in a while, an emotional sugar rush of sorts. when everything is perfect. the sort that most people is what happiness is.

maybe you're unwittingly chasing a high, and not true happiness? when the high crashes, you get really depressed?

i'm not sure.

take care and see you tonight.

runecircle July 17 2007, 05:04:48 UTC

*the sort that most people THINK what happiness is

Listen.... anonymous July 18 2007, 06:43:03 UTC

For you.

Je crois entendre encore

From'The Pearl Fishers' by Bizet.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=xurR4pTps9c

Re: Listen.... robingoh July 18 2007, 18:26:09 UTC

Sweet. Thank you. Fleta is pretty amazing. I hear that Caballe learnt her pianissimi from him.

ilikeit_big July 21 2007, 16:45:36 UTC

Sorry to read about your entry. *Hugs*

I recently went through a breakup.. The relationship I had, felt like one of marriage. I don't know whether what I'm saying makes any sense, but I truly understand how you feel at this point in time.