at the end of the day, i just really dont want to be the guy from garden state that digs graves in the jewish graveyard.

let me preface this whole oredeal witht the fact that i've had a straight three glasses of wine ( Read more... )

Well, in an attempt to get towards the goal of being happy all the time and being the smiling person i want and need to be i will figure it out analytically. i could do it all over time but it may take years, much like reaching this level of socialality has taken a hot 2 years maybe more. Regardless. i need to figure out what pisses me off or to ( Read more... )

I feel sadly and regrettablyy the same as i did one year ago. I hate that i feel like the exact same person from a year ago. Not much has changed from nov 1st 08 when i moved into west street. Experiences i suppose have been gained, strides socially i would argue also have been acheived but altodgether i just feel too similar to that weird ( Read more... )

i've sabotaged yet another relationship with my unwillingness to communicate.....

wtf when will i get my head out of ass! when will i talk to that chick that is clearly all about me!?!!?!?

back at square 1, it aint so bad really.

ba-ba

BR101 - All i want is an excuse to justify my shortcomings

"You are lost the instant you know what they result will be"

I forgot this and everything blew up in my face last night, i feel like i was raped in the face.  FUCK.  career opportunity out the window.

Going to work my face off tonight. A reminder to everyone who wants to create, you have to be evil in the face of complacency. It's a FIGHT.- JOhn ( Read more... )

i cant focus because my mind is racing with joy, over opportunites that i dont have the courage to implement.

Sometimes i hope i wake up and it will be 2005 again, and i'll be driving around in the jeep liberty listening to The Garden State ost.  I grew up, and i guess i need to get the courage today to follow through on this opportunity.  I ( Read more... )

Damn it all, just when i'm so lost and couldnt be any closer to the logical and happy ending, life slash she throws me a curve ball.  I cannot believe two things.  A- that it immediately improved everything, in order, my dreams, sunday, they whole mutha uckin weekQ!  B- the same thing, HOW HAPPY it made me you know.  you dont know, it filled me ( Read more... )