Don't care if this gets read by anyone.....MUST keep track of my life ( Read more... )

The agony isn't stopping. It's getting worse. I can't stand being alone. Being abandoned for a misunderstanding. I can't stop shaking. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't stop thinking and thinking. I can't take this anymore. I cannot fall out of love. It won't happen...please....

What is it about me that allows someone to love me unconditionally, and then throw me away like a ragdoll when they're done? It is finally clear to me the meaning of the words worthless. People take and take from me- suck all the life out until there's nothing left, then expect me to be completely okay. It's not right. It's fucking not right. I ( Read more... )

Grrr....sooo tired ( Read more... )

So...I'm on the plane right now heading for England (using Mum's lap-top). Thank God they allow us to use our shit on the planes now. There's this bitch sitting behind me who keeps complaining to the stewards about every little fucking thing wrong with her. She's driving me fucking nuts. I want to turn around and punch her! Plus, she's wearing this ( Read more... )

Um. Why did I want to come home again? Northern-California is so fucking cold right now. And you can't see shit anywhere cause there's so much fog...ughhh... How crazy am I- I just want to go home to Seattle. The annoying 9 hour flight to England is tomorrow (I'm really not looking forward to that). Then I'll be home and subject to the irritation ( Read more... )

I barely post anymore. -Perhaps cause now that I've got a digital camera (in my phone) I don't write anymore- A picture is worth a thousand words ( Read more... )

Anyone up for moving back to Australia with me? What is this country we live in, who re-elects nearly the most inefficient and incompetent president it has ever held ( Read more... )

OMG ~ School's started and I've never been so busy in my life.... I quit one of my jobs, and I feel like I'm even busier than before. And now that Rush is about to start....eek ( Read more... )

I I just experienced a serious revelation about my life and what I want to do with it... another lengthy entry, but something I need to write down for myself ( Read more... )