Well, I realized why I decided that I wanted to play saxophone way back in 4th grade. Emotion really comes out through sax, and there's just something about that beautiful sound that rips me right into it. Oh man, words can't even describe it. Decided to listen to the Nuclear Whales today out of the blue, and it was exactly what i wanted to hear. ( Read more... )

My brain just sorta feels like mush the past few days. So many ideas and thoughts and feelings running through there I just don't have the power to sort it all out as fast as its moving. I've placed a few things in order and the only thing i've come to with anything is just a dead end, at least for the time being. I'm ready to make a move on things ( Read more... )

It's weird how sometimes my own thoughts just don't make any sense to me. Everything around me is changing, and I'm not sure what to make of it, or what to do. The place I felt the most comfortable has gone somewhere else, and I don't know if it'll come back or if it'll feel the same. I miss it, I miss that place so much right now. All the bullshit ( Read more... )

I was just thinking ( Read more... )

Well everything has basically gone to hell around this house. My mom is on some sort of psychotic bitch trip, screaming and yelling at me every god damn day, usually as soon as i get home from work she starts this. Basically she wants me to do whatever she tells me to with no questions asked, and I'm sorry, but she's fucking nuts, and I can't deal ( Read more... )

Yeah..well...been thinkin about stuff ( Read more... )

*sigh* why is it that the world all of a sudden turns against you around christmas? Because Christmas is evil. thats why ( Read more... )

FUCK! ASS ( Read more... )

There's a fight going on inside me, and it's really starting to piss me off. My heart is telling me one thing, and painting beautiful pictures of what could happen, and my brain is telling me something totally different. WTF? Logically my brain obviously makes sense and I know I should listen to my brain, but, then i'm sure i'll be kicking myself ( Read more... )

Lots of worrying, lots of thinking ( Read more... )