recent times
January
the snow just melted
not into spring grass
but just melted
walked to work in a foul mood
it was all doom and gloom
almost seven years of this I thought
almost seven years,
basically a child.
almost killed myself
on the wet cement,
slick from once snow
now just water at my toes
seeing mistakes and failings
every where I looked
everywhere I looked
and I looked,
and I didn't see you once
no I didn't see you once
trapped by the windows
they hold too much air in
coming back from lunch
I couldn't take it anymore
I nearly ripped the door off
though it had been broken before
I barely moved it
barely budged it from its hinge
but they still removed it the next day
while I had to return
and I walked through the empty frame
applied some plastic with my name
So little I can believe in
only a few things get me by
strong black tea
and you and
sometimes me
everywhere I looked
and I looked,
and didn't see you once
no I didn't see you once