i was thinking, probably a bit harder than I would have liked, and I solved a very difficult puzzle ( Read more... )

i have no one to talk to. seriously. ive been writing way too much lately. it seems so desperate. i wish i could call someone right now and talk to them on the phone endlessly.

im just going to rant a little ( Read more... )

ive never loved my friends so much. i love the fact that i know who my friends are, and i know where i belong and who i belong with ( Read more... )

dammit. im just going to deem myself irrational. this way everytime i am feeling whether it be happy or sad, or angry, or frusturated, i can tell myself that these feeling are not real,and they are just a product of chemical imbalances. if i dont believe in my feeling maybe that will stop existing, or at least be a little more subtle ( Read more... )

well im a little retarted, but i figured some shit out and im really excitd to write about it but its 2 am and i really need to get to sleep. and i probably wont end up writing about it, becuause i will be sober

i need to stop hitting on boys

rock bottom. i sure did hit it ( Read more... )

right now, i can say i hate my life with complete sincerity ( Read more... )

at 8:30 am i was on a bus from kingston. I am back in new york. i worked all day for the first time in over a month...my back was so sore and i can barely lift anything. i get home and all my bedding is on the floor, katies shit is everywhere, my sheets and matress have blood stains. i was sooo upset. all i wanted was to lie down in my bed. it was ( Read more... )