i owe several of you phone calls. sorry to be so unpredictable; i promsise i'll call.

love,
me

I haven't been on IAM:BME since, hm, the beginning of July? this after a relationship that started at its inception... i don't know if i miss it or not. i miss some of the people, and sometimes i miss expressing myself in that way...

i have a question... when it comes to people, do you think "having what you want" is the overall goal? "Yes! He talked to me." "Yes! I slept with her." What's your theme? Your plan? Your gratification?

lay it on me, people.

that's what they call someone who draws, it turns out. being a 'drawer,' by contrast, is a dubious distinction ( Read more... )

If I could keep myself from smoking (or staying up until 2 fucking 30) then I would be in the gym regularly and getting a great body a la Kelly. I figure now's the time, right? plus, better to go overboard from the tugboat of health then fall, all drunken, hacking, and clap-ridden, over the railing of the Cruiseliner of Self-Destructive Behavior ( Read more... )

Grandpa bought us crab legs on sale for dinner last night. Ate 'em cold, with butter.

yum.

I'm thinking it's not a total coincidence to be eating treyf so close to the High Holy Days. For Grandpa, the dullest, most bitter death of the Holocaust was God ( Read more... )

I open my door, and no one steps inside. So I come in through yours, when it's open, but you don't want to make the space it takes to fit all of me. EVEN though I'm willing to squeeze down.

so now I just get angry to keep myself from being sad or disappointed - a tactic more overplayed than a TRL lovesong.

My dreams are frustrating lately. They are very long and very detailed, and so stressful/engrossing that they keep me from waking up. Such is my unconscious logic; if a dream is uncomfortable in some way, I *must* see it through until everything equalizes. This morning, that meant 2 hours past my alarm. Blech ( Read more... )

I wrote this, when, this past March? unfinished, as usual ( Read more... )