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i've been writing songs in the shower, mostly anti- corporation stuff that sounds punk to me but i realized that i was just taking songs from other bands and adding new words, it sucked i was so proud for a sec. Daniel and Adrian broke up and they had their problems but they still should be together i think its affected me more then them in my mind they were a couple that wouldn't end. mom and andrew are dating, she says they are not but they go on dates all the time, i think she has to much pride to remarry him he is an ass and she sees it now but she also still loves him, i assume he makes her happy cus she keeps hanging around him. so in the end isn't that what its abut finding someone to make you happy? I found out that doug and nicole don't hang out as much which really kills me they were the first people that i could be myself around and now they don't hang much. Mucho Sucko. seaking of which
There is a website called mucho sucko online and they have so pretty funny videos but there is also some pretty messed up shit on that site if you've never been there i wouldn't really recomend it. saturday i was for the first time in my life out-right and totally stoned it was so crazy i loved it, and now the guys in 201 go dry. arg that is mucho sucko, to any of you out there who would say that wed is bad fuck off, if you don't do it thats fine, yes THC is a drug, but how can you believ anything the government and schools tell you about it when they also used to say marijuana caused homicidal rage. unless wait i get it now, in the forties when they said that, weed did make you homicidal, but god who lives in the 48 sphere of the cosmos above our flat earth changed that, by snapping his fingers cus there is no way in hell it evolved that way, right thanks for clearing that up, but i will say this inhalesing smoke is bad, but so is alcohol and you can pry it from my cold dead hand. you think i am making the stuff up about the homicidal rage, well watch history channel some, they actully showed the propoganda film it was beautiful. "where is johny? What johny smoking marijuanna ciggorettes?! boy will be boys right? WRONG!! little billy'e mother thought the same thing and now she and her whole family are dead and billy is in jail!!!!!" beautiful stuff gotta love good old lies huh?
i can't seem to find a girl i want even the ones that seem unatainable when i finally attain its crap all crap bordom and blah. i say i want a girl whos not afraid to be on top and not afraid to stand up and argue to the point of stuborn for what she believes but nothing to be found, i thought i found a cool punk chick but nope just a whinny future soccer mom. they all seem to love to cook and love kids . . . . . GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! I don't think i want kids, and i don't want a clone of me, it seems if a girl wants to be a punk a prep a whatever they just find a boy like that and take a chunk of his personality as their own they keep some asspects of themselves, but personally i don't really like me that much i am kind of a dick (ask ryan i bite his head off and end up saying sorry all the time). so if any of you have a friend or even just somone you know that sound like they might fit the bill call me, please people i am like three feet away from asking doug on a date . . .ok well no he would pop my ass like a little balloon. ouch, sorry doug yourjust too big for your own good down there.