Comments | rockercass: The empty silence in my head matched the emptyness in my heart

rockercass

The empty silence in my head matched the emptyness in my heart

Feb 16, 2005 19:16

Have you ever been somewhere where you didnt feel wanted? I dunno maybe i am just getting more parinoid every day but to me it seems that i have lost all ties with everyone because of one stupid reason or another. I dunno. I have just felt so empty. My birthday was nothing but fighting among me and everyone else. My dad didnt even tell me Happy ( Read more... )

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morbidiacangel February 17 2005, 14:41:04 UTC

Your aim not work then cuz i Imed you happy birthday dammit
My cousin had to show up Monday night for me to remember to say happy birthday to her even though the plan was to call you and her. Screw your parents Cassie you need to just hunt down a new job and get the hell out...oh and QUIT DRUGS!! They don't help you any I swear...i love you darling but sometimes you are like anyone else i care about...you make me wish to scream.

rockercass February 17 2005, 17:42:57 UTC

My aim is fucked up because it is set to send my texts to my mobile phone..but my mobile phone isnt hooked up...Oh and well, i dunno why didnt you just grab the damn phone from Jonathan when i called him while you guys were hanging out on my birthday? Yeah thats why. Yeah you are right about the getting a job and getting the hell out, and i dont think i would be alive right now if it wasnt for the drugs to tell you the truth. And you love me? WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU EVEN TALKED TO ME FOR MORE THAN 5 SECONDS? It hurts Danielle. I thought we were friends. You were one of the first people who ever talked to me when i first came down here...that ment something to me. Oh well...i guess it didnt mean anything to you...

hopeabeth February 17 2005, 19:23:51 UTC

sorry your bday sucked cass. but GOD DAMNIT! you seriously need to quit this pitty thing. its not helping. i sorry i am so blunt right now but i dont know any other way to say it without being confusing. and i didnt call cuz i dont have your number! so pppstt! :P there is so much to life than you may think... believe me... its hitting me hard in the face. this whole moving to Ohio is September thing is making me realize how much more everything means to me. ive taking things for granted and wish i could go back and fix it. Cass, i have no other way to talk to you except through LJ...so here is my cell # (225)405-1435, if you need to talk to someone or just want to chat call it... i may be at work or at school though. but i will get back to you. i dont know what my work scedule is going to be like right now. and i agree with Dee, no more drugs! please! you were such a cool person before the drugs. i miss you and wish you the best

rockercass February 18 2005, 01:58:04 UTC

Look i am not trying to pull a pitty thing, i am sorry if it sounds like what i am doing. I do appreciate the advice and all but the only reason i have been so upset lately is because all the people who are supposed to be my friends shut me out. I miss you guys. You were my first friends i had here. My friends who i would have done anything for all you would of had to of done is asked. But no one ever calls, no one ever asked me to go anywhere with them. I know that i dont have a job but i usually never go anywhere without any money in my pocket so wouldnt be asking for freebes if that is what you all are thinking. I just really do not understand what it is that i did. That is the point i have been trying to get accross, not to pity me but inform me. I know that there is a lot to life and that is why i figured that if you all dont want me around for whatever reason then so be it...i wont come around, i wont call, whatever. I mean i just am tired of getting on here, hearing about all the fun times you are having together and never even ( ... )

rockercass February 18 2005, 01:58:45 UTC

lol damn that was long!