I've Been Alone All Along:

[rockfairy6]

I'm noticing more and more that no matter what I think, I do care what people 'think' about me. They can say what they want. But it's the thoughts that will get to me. Silent death

Comments

[esiye]

You're a pretty little girl. Believe me or I'll personally come to your house and kick your ass. Upstairs or not. I'm making you a CD of the tracks on my live journal when there's like 15 different lyrics. Then I'm mailing it to your house so you can be all secretive and your parents can freak out. Because I'm awesome.

[rockfairy6]

Haha, I don't really believe you but I can kick your ass way harder then you can to me. Your like... what? 125 pounds? Ha!... :-) Thank you for making me the CD you really don't have to if you don't want to but whatever. My parents will probably open it before they even tell me it came though, they're so damn annoying. Do you have my address?

[gellybelly31]

yeah i hear ya on that one too...my family reminds me every day of my life, numerous times a day, that im fat and need to lose weight...

my grandpa has even told me that i should stop eating, i cant eat, and to not eat, and only drink water...

so they pretty much want me to be anorexic...

...i know anorexia's bad, but at the same time, i wanna do it to get them to shut the hell up and leave me alone...and to show them that all these years, their words have really hurt me and my self esteem...u kno?

theyll realize how critical/sensitive that topic is

like ive gotten it for yrs, every single day, and now its like i cant take it anymore and just need them to shut the hell up...so i might just have to stop eating for a bit so they leave me the F* alone! u know?! lol

and its not like im obese...i could lose a few pds, but im mainly muscle, so i dont know wtf is wrong with them...o well, wutever...theyll regret it soon enough ;)

sorry for the spew, but just wanted to vent and share that with u, so u know that i feel ya lol

=]

[rockfairy6]

:'-( That is so sad. You really don't deserve to be treated like that. I am truly sorry for what they say to you all the time. I know how bad words can hurt. But you just need to try your best to ignore it, I know how hard that can be, though. They're all obviously bitter for some reason, and have to take everything out on you... I hope they stop saying all that shit to you soon because I bet it's not even true, I bet your beautiful. For some reason if you can't ignore them, maybe you should confront them? If they love you they will stop when you ask them to & once you explain how much their words effect you.

<33.

[gellybelly31]

true...ya i think if i confront them ill just cry for days LMAO

so i dunno...but yeah, u have reasoning...so i guess we'll see what happens

thanks :)

[rockfairy6]

It might be hard to confront them but in the end it'll be worth it because you wouldn't hear that shit anymore. :-D

Anytime. <3.

[inner_dork_]

I was never the pretty or popular one, either.

You can be happy without being thin and gorgeous. Just concentrate on being happy from within, not from how you look. <3 And I bet you already are pretty. ;D

[rockfairy6]

True... but part of the reason why I am so depressed all the time is because of the way I look. Trust me, I am not pretty. lol. But I will try and concentrate on being happy from within. <33.