God I envy musicians. Lying on the couch in pure darkness listening to Taking Back Sunday, 30 Seconds to Mars, & The Academy Is... on headphones & realized how much I love music & it's about one of the only things that's been there to make me feel better throughout the years. Anyways, lying there listening to music I realize how much I wish I ( Read more... )

Today's my last day here where OTAHouse once stood. The place feels so quiet & alone while I'm packing today. It's that phantasmal silence that you can't break no matter how loud you play music. But yeah, packing today & leaving to crash on geki's couch tonight. right now i don't know if i'm going to keep in touch with everyone here & go to ( Read more... )

So I've become homeless again. Our bastard new roommate complained about me living here downstairs & this started a ton of faults that led to me getting josh evicted from malibu. everybody keeps telling me it's not my fault & that it's the new guy's or the management but i know it's me for being here in the first place. so i'm going to move in ( Read more... )

lemme see ( Read more... )

-Been working full time the past couple of weeks. it's been murder ( Read more... )

WARNING, JOURNAL ENTRY IS "EMO". IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR SUNSHINE & LOLIPOPS, THIS ENTRY CONTAINS NONE OF THAT ( Read more... )

lol you read that right. Work's the only place I've been able to find any kind of peace lately. When I'm not working I'm wrought with sadness & lonliness & when I sleep I've been attacked by all my lil inner demons via nightmares these past few days. At work, I feel like I'm fighting a battle & actually accomplishing something. Last night was ( Read more... )

Okay, so I'm starting to freak out as it draws closer to the day everyone moves out. Typical me I guess. So now I'm worrying if I'm going to be able to stay here or if I'm going to find another place & if so if I can find someone to cosign for me that isn't my mother. That & I'm gonna miss my friends too much. They're the closest thing to ( Read more... )

Actually been in somewhat good spirits lately despite everyone getting ready to move out & the week of hell publix just got through giving me. Don't know if it's the new music I'm listening to(new Muse albulm!!!! & Wolfmother gets my nomination for best new band of the summer) or I'm taking too many motrin but I've just been coasting along on a ( Read more... )

So I got to go to some doctors to get my hand/wrist checked out. Apparently nothing's broken or fractured & i just had some internal bleeding that's giving me all the swelling & the pain. So I just gotta hold out & everything should fix itself. Got 3 days off & I'm starting to realize more & more that I actually like work & when I'm not working ( Read more... )