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This situation is just wrong. Why do I feel like the Virgin Mary of society? Or atleast, the Virgin Mary of the people I've known for such a long time. How can people get themselves into so much trouble, and not be able to get out of it?
These are people I've grown up with. Well, ok, no, we spent our formative years together. Those days are forever gone now, and I'm just realizing it. We were so innocent in middle school...We had eachother and no one could touch us. I felt invincible with these girls, and now, I feel like I'm soaring above each and every one of them. Is it sick to say that I know I'm a better person than all of them put together? Maybe they don't think highly of themselves, and I do. So, back to the Virgin Mary thing- maybe it's not such a bad thing. I've never stolen anything, never had sex (wow, I just said I was a virgin right here in this frigging livejournal. how nice.) never done drugs, never smoked the ganja (which seems to be popular among people I know) and I don't drink alcohol. I've only ever tasted it like 5 times in my life. That's pretty dang good if you ask me or anyone else in the world. The most shocking or worst thing I've ever done is ditch school. That and cuss. Big whoop. Let's expand upon the list of things I've never done. I've never gotten into trouble at ANY school I've ever went to...Well- except for that one time in 4th grade when we ordered pizza to a certain someone, and the principal called my mom. Never been yelled at/disciplined by a teacher, never had a detention, never had my name written on the board, never was I told to put something away that I wasn't supposed to have, NEVER have I ever had anything like that. I am a good kid, every kid should be like me.
What confuses the heck out of me is, how did these people go to the same schools that I did, had the same teachers that I did, hung out with the same people, etc- but THEY are the ones that are screwed up? How come I'm not like they are? It boggles my mind. Completely and utterly confuses me. I can't give any examples of the people I'm referring to, all I want to say is that we were and thought we would be best friends forever. Boy, was I wrong. These people have dug themselves a hole deeper than the Grand Canyon. No one forced them to do the things they did, they can make their own decisions, and I doubt that they know they made the wrong ones. I half-way feel sorry for them, but then again, I don't. It's to the point where I don't even wanna associate myself with them. It disgusts me. Am I a prude? No, I just think I am better than they are. I think I can thank my mother for that. For raising me "right." Hey, if she ever complains...I can just bring up the losers that used to be my friends, then she'll really be proud of her kid.
I have my own niche, where I am comfortable and happy. I can count on them. Even after not hanging out, or talking to eachother as much as we used to, we just recently started hanging out again, and we picked right up where we left off. It's not even like we ever were apart, and I love that. I love them, my friends. Oh! And I love my Phoot too. (who, by the way, none of this about...)
Until next time I want to write a novel...
ps- my Britney icon freakin' rocks, right?!