I can't believe I have a 5 day weekend. I am so excited. I have so much work to do but it can wait. I need this weekend..I think I am going to try to sneak my cousin in to see chuck tomorrow night. If not I am gonna go by myself..I have to see if my hot guy is there..hehe I am bad. I feel like I should start using my live journal to post more about ( Read more... )

I feel so terrible..I am totally always thinking about this new guy..this guy that I will never date but jeez do I have the hots for him..I can't stop thinking about him its crazy, I feel so bad and I told Ben and he understood and since he has knows me since I was born he ofcourse knows my fear of marriage and stuff so he understands (thank god) ( Read more... )

I think its like a rule in someones book that when megan has a boyfriend all the hot guys come out of the woods to atract her and make her be mean to her boyfriend...I have cheated on every single guy I dated and with Ben I wanted it to be different this time..I feel so bad. I love Ben and when we weren't dating I still was in love with him and ( Read more... )

sometimes I contemplate giving this LJ thing up but then I figure why not keep it to write the stupid things I do. 1) I went spinning last night at the gym for the first time and boy do I have pain in areas I didnt even know could feel pain...When you are sitting your butt and other areas hurt when oyu are standing your feet hurt, its like a lose ( Read more... )

Lately it has been weird..Ben left Monday morning and since then I have missed him so much. I keep writting pro and con lists on if I should stay in Jax or move to West Palm to be with him. I don't want to move for a guy but I feel like we will break up again if I don't. I love him more than anything but Ross is still in my mind and he is coming ( Read more... )

ok so I had a day off yesterday right...so I went and got my hair did...omg was it done..It is now a very dark brown almost black..It is horrible I wanted a honey brown but whatever it will fade hopefully and I will be good for L.A I guess it is a good thing that I decided to get it done way before L.A. Anyways...today I went and got Brokeback ( Read more... )

So I haven't been around this thing in a few days or around anything except work and my babe. Friday was a cool day I went to work at 9:00 and left at 11 to go shopping and then to the race track, being there was such a weird expirience it is very very neat. Friday night Ben and I went to have some sushi it was so nice having him here. Saturday was ( Read more... )

I must say today was amazing..I had a great time at my golf tournament only a little stress and annoyance but the rest was great. I realized I am going to marry a golfer hehe..his name is ben..Today totally justified why me and ben still deal with the distance..because when we are together it makes up for all the time apart and I never feel presure ( Read more... )

I just got the greatest news...Ben is coming tomorrow for my golf tournament and is staying until next sunday..I am sooo excited. I havent spent a whole week with him since we have been dating..it is going to be a blast. I cant sleep I am that excited..not like I sleep at all anymore anyways...ill update more later...most likely whiile im at work

Why do I stay out all night, I am now dealthy ill and tired and cranky due to the fact that I was promised cheesecake factory for dinner and havent eaten since 6 this morning..and mad because I could have gone to St. Pete but noo I thought I had to work..and due to the fact that I worked today I got roped into a second job..on the weekends..how ( Read more... )